It was pretty nice, haven't seen this person in a few years. We talked a bit about the bad stuff, but it was pretty healing for us to have an old friend to talk to honestly about all of our feeling about the JWs.
I've just been reading the threads about Bill, Pandelos, etc, and I can't help but feel great about you guys.
I met Neablis, and he was awesome. My own family has grown so close since they left and stopped fighting each other over the relgion. I talked to my father tonight, and I didn't recognize the person on the other line...while he's sad about the wasted time in the JWs, he's a different person...or maybe this was the real him all along.
But, I'm not asking myself 'What did I miss as a JW?', but 'What am I going to do with the rest of my life now that I'm out?'. It's all you can do.
I'm feeling kind of emotional because I think that I'm finally starting to let go of the bitterness toward humanity, and am starting to hit that good place....just becoming balanced.
I've accepted where I've been, am satisfied with the current set of circumstances, and am working towards becoming a great man, both to my wife, but to everyone I come in contact with, and not for some dream where I lord it over people in a fantasy world, but to be able to give something meaningful to people right now, in an imperfect world. It's always a struggle in the real life, but being a good person MEANS SOMETHING outside of the org, and I'm going to take advantage of it and become a good man.
I really don't know what I want to say. I think that I'm just beginning to feel the true separation from the borg, the emotional release from guilt and fear of them. I feel strong.
I just thinks it's wonderful to have all of the windows on this Big House thrown open again, and all of the doors unlocked.
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