... than I expected. I just could'nt bear to go sit in the meeting today for 2 boring hours. It just drives me to the point of rage when I think about how the WTS shoots off this spiel about how we HAVE to attend meeting upon meeting and put in a seemingly infinite amount of field service hours to please God. Then theres the circuit conventions, district conventions, special day talks, memorial talks, visits from the overseer, pioneer meetings, elder meetins, ministerial servant meetings. I just can't take this bullshit anymore. I could have swore Christ said that his load is'nt a burden. Maybe the society did'nt have that scripture in mind when they decided to print boatloads of their own interpetations of the bible.
I'm sick of elders nagging me because they don't think I put in enough hours, I'm sick of drone like congregation members probing me for an excuse when I miss a meeting, I'm even more sick of rushing to get cleaned up and dressed for meetings after I've spent 10+ hours at the job.
Just this morning I was standing out in the rain like an idiot trying to do return visits when I should have been at home like a sensible person. I just can't deal with this religion anymore. I'm trying my best to just hang in there until the end of the week, my wedding anniversary is in 5 days and I did'nt want to spoil it for my wife with an announcement that I know she's gonna freak out over.
It feels good to vent a little bit, even if its only on the internet
