JWDaughter . I have known TTATT for only 2 years 2 months. As a born-in to wake up at age 62 and realize it was all a lying fantasy dreamed up by a bunch of con men for their financial and material and warped personality needs... made me a bit sick. At the time I woke up, I had lots going on and had no time to really dwell, on any of it. My sister died last Fall. We were never supposed to go to school, with Armageddon being just around the corner. Now my only sister is gone, never to be seen again.
Since she died, I appreciate my life so much more. Life has gone on, the world did not stop. Armageddon is just a man made up scare tactic, that apparently is working on 7 million JW's, unfortunately for them.
I am in my garden, and sit and rest on my front porch. I am surrounded by natural beauty. Clipping roses, while overhead Bald Eagle's fly by. At night, the last few nights, the moon and stars and planets, swirled in passing clouds... is breath taking. I am having my life in paradise now, with no KHall's or Elder's telling me what to do and how to do it.
That I and you and everyone in time will die, sucks... BAD. That JW's are in a religious prison that sucks the life out of them and turns them into drones is unfair and cruel.
You and I were not born in third world country's so life is already better for us, than most. If I was born in a 3rd world country, I would most certainly be dead by now.
I get upset, even angry, it is okay, even normal, but I let it go. That I am going to die and have to say the final good bye to my most precious daughter, who is the most loving, kind and beautiful daughter I could ever ask for... breaks my heart.
Reading and writing on JWN helps me a lot. Going to Talk Therapy twice a month helps me a lot too.
Some children die as infants. That is not fair. We are alive. I have all of my body parts and they all work. I am thankful to be alive. That is enough.
LoisLane
