My family started to study when I was six years old. A lady would come to our house and read us a book that had stories about the bible. As I grew older I grew to like it and then is when I become very advocated to it. I prepared myself for the meeting and would read the bible and Watchtower publications often. From the age 8 till about 15 I was very into it. But then as I grew up and started reasoning more for myself I started having doubts and questions. I met a wonderful history teacher whose purpose was to stir our minds find questions in what we took for granted to be true. During this time I might add, things were getting really bad in my family. Going back in a flash back, since I was six my dad physically abused of me as well as emotionally. Whenever I asked him why he would hit me in such way he would simply say, “You deserved it”. When I was smaller, having less capacity to think for myself I would believe him, but as I got older I learned this NOT to be true, and when this realization came about is when the problems started. I became hungrier for knowledge, not satisfied anymore with the information given to me, new possibilities became visible, showing there wasn’t one specific answer to everything, as I had thought for so long, so I started looking in the knowledge of the “world”, what a jw would call it. Information useless to man, only to bring him down to his own sin, but here I found more realizations, more question doubts. What I found in what they told me to stay away from was not some evil force trying to bring me to its unholy throne, but facts that made them, the WTS the unimaginable, wrong. I found what was beyond the truth, what they didn’t want you to see not because it would harm you, but make you wake up, think for yourself, see past the pretty picture they place for you at the beginning to get you in. They used two wise tactics on man to bring him to the church, and keep him there, fear and ignorance. Many who are in are good people, with good hearts, thinking they are giving the best meaning to their life, but are controlled by those smarter, closing them from the outside. These are usually the ones who take care of hiding the scandals, and “keeping the sheep in the flock”. But coming back to my own family problem, which in a few moments will be understood why it is presented, was going from worst to horrible, I had never told anyone but a few close friends about the ongoing abuse, but I was 16 and it happened again, and I had the age and the knowledge to know what my father was doing was wrong, and wasn’t going to let it happened again, I notified authorities and I was placed with a JW friend of the family, which eventually took my dad’s side when my doubts about the organization were revealed, making my life in her as miserable as in my own home. In a month I went back home feeling homesick in my unstable stage of mind, believing the lies of my father who claimed things would change, if the charges was dropped and I came home, but I soon found this to be a lie, when he told me himself he had lied, so that him and the ORG. could handle things. The next sixth months I dedicated them to running away, trying to stay anywhere but home. During these six months my parents took advantage of me not going to the meeting anymore, to make me look like an evil retched child to the elders and soon enough a meeting was arranged with the elders and here I came to be accused of being un-respectful to my parents for looking for my own safety. My dad spend half an hour talking to them about things that had not happened, leaving me with my mouth open wide, for if I don’t remember wrong, you are not supposed to lie in these meeting, bc the holy spirit would not allow such a thing. They said they saw no resentment in my actions, for I said my dad my was lying and I did not do such things and even though I still found the humility to tell them that if I ever was rude I was sorry, they expelled me from the church. Usually it is said that you only get expelled for committing fornication, adultery, constant drug abuse, some evil retched sin, but I wasn’t. At this point in I time I wondered how many were like me, expelled for lesser reasons that weren’t valid, and I felt awful for ever having a judgmental thought against them. I appealed and another meeting was set up with different elders, and here I was also expelled for showing no desire of going to church in the last months, and I for a fact that the elders from my past had influence in this decision, for they were enraged when they saw I didn’t feel there decision had anything to do with what God would do. I was busy looking for my own safety so I hoped to find understanding, but I found none. Soon the door started closing with my parents pressing charges on anybody who offered help to me so I when my dad finally put in writing this hypocrite hidden feelings I went to authorities and I am once more in foster care recovering, from my life, with and actual foster family. Since being df’d from the org, there have been a lot of rumors of the reasons for it and the craziest stories have been formed, “brothers’ thinking the worst of me, which I don’t blame them for, I once was the same. Brothers who once hugged me and KNEW me well to be a good child now stay away from me like if I were the devil. About my parents with the support of the org. they are still convinced that the problem was me, that there is no way the fault could be on them, bc through it all they never stopped going to the meetings. I wonder, would they have treated me better if I had kept on going? When we went to court to see if I would stay home or stay in foster care, and I was surprised to see that my dad neglects ever having abusing me, this hurts me to the core, and the worst part is the church believes him, and this is only the beginning of my story, i am really glad to have found people i can relate with, i will write more soon. thanks for reading a piece of my live story, but just to show nothing is what it seems
when the TRUTH became lies
by hedonistixstar 5 Replies latest watchtower scandals
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Satanus
It's terrible, what happened to you. Thanks for telling some of your story. I'm glad you found a foster home. Keep staying away from your father. Protecting yourself is very important. It's not a selfish thing to do. It's a totally normal and good thing to do.
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lisaBObeesa
Wow, Truthseeker,
That is quite a story. Growing up is tough enough without crazy parents..and then to add into the mix a crazy religion...You must be a very, very strong person!
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"I found what was beyond the truth, what they didn’t want you to see not because it would harm you, but make you wake up, think for yourself, see past the pretty picture they place for you at the beginning to get you in. "
****************************What info did you find that made you 'wake up' as you say? I know when I was 18, I went to the local library and looked up everything written about the New World Translation by scholars. After that trip to the library, my eyes were open!
Thank you for telling your story,
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crawdad2
hi hedonistixstar,
i'm glad you posted your experience.
many people, even exjws, don't realize how corrupt judicial committe meetings are.and the appeal process.......hahaha......they are infuriated that you don't believe they had "holy spirit"...... they consider you "unrepentant", for not accepting their decision,........ so they get 3 of their close friends (elders).......to meet with you and render the same decision.
i hope you continue to post more of your experiences, to show everyone how bad and corrupt that organization really is.
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SpiderMonkey
star, welcome back to life!!
anyone else find it odd how many of these "unfortunate isolated experiences" there are, as the R&F would call them?
SpiderMonkey
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Zagor Almanah
Hi Guys
What make me wake up is after I have read their organization book, and how the GB claim divine worship from the people through the '' organization''. The Borg first, than Jehova and Jesus after. It is the only way God can communicate, through the GB. If he does it outside, he can't talk and hear
Luckily it happened before I baptized. It scared the hell out of me.
Here is a very good website from the former elder. I don't know if you have heared of it. He comes up with questions every JW should ask themselves regarding Biblical issues.