swallow...........reject..........angry...........

by SpiceItUp 3 Replies latest jw friends

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  SpiceItUp

  Swallow
  Consume
  and drown
  in a bottle
  of agony;
  the tide
  has reached
  half full
  or is it
  half empty
  waiting for
  the belly
  to retch
  its last
  companion
  as a spare
  in case
  the supply
  is totally
  dried out.
  Engulf
  into another
  beach
  like a fish
  drinking
  its home
  filled
  with oil
  until its
  washed up
  and dead
  staring
  into the
  night
  with
  blurry glassy
  eyes
  ~1997~
  
  Reject
  Its your friend
  mother brother
  sister
  other half
  Gets you caught
  in a line
  in a lie
  in the truth
  That you know
  you keep
  you wear
  you hide
  In the place
  inside
  in where
  noone looks
  Its all alone
  in the heart
  the head
  the emotion
  But you reject it
  just so
  you wont
  see it
  inside you
  And it rejects
  your emptiness
  also
  ~1996~
  
  Angry
  Violent images
  to face upon
  created by
  the unwillingness
  to hear the
  underlying truth
  of the matter
  in which all
  shouldnt be
  forgiven but
  should be
  cursed and
  slandered
  and hated
  for the sheer
  purpose of
  survival,
  that hasnt
  been deemed
  necessary,
  nor wanted,
  nor given
  any thought of
  Angry with
  the very
  reason
  for existence
  and not
  from the
  cause of
  private
  humiliation
  that still
  manages
  to stir a
  deep seated
  emotional
  remorseful response
  to which
  cannot be
  controlled;
  The lovely anger
  that only
  fulfills a
  passionate
  dreamland
  without
  escape;
  As long as
  there is anger
  there is the
  reason
  for it
  ~1998~
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  Lady Lee

  Spice - I really like the last line of Anger - says it all
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  Solace

  Spice, I feel like crying but you are a very deep and talented person.
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  SpiceItUp

  Thank you Lady & Heaven...

  lately it seems that I am on again off again in a slum/funk/whatever *sigh*. My emotions have been on a very bad rollercoaster for a while---too many things to sort out............

  here is another...............

  (untitled)
  lost in a
  dreamless
  little largely
  real world
  wondering
  what it is
  exactly
  that I'm not
  supposed
  to be
  thinking
  in that
  great
  prose state
  but we all
  wish it
  would
  sometimes
  but in
  actuality
  we dont
  and nothing
  happens
  which is
  the exact
  opposite
  of the
  expected
  and in
  the end
  all is
  forgotten
  but you
  never
  can be sure
  until its over
  and even then
  you just dont
  understand
  why it is
  that you
  were wondering
  in the first place
  ~2000~