swallow...........reject..........angry...........

by SpiceItUp 3 Replies latest jw friends

  • SpiceItUp
    SpiceItUp

    Swallow
    Consume
    and drown
    in a bottle
    of agony;
    the tide
    has reached
    half full
    or is it
    half empty
    waiting for
    the belly
    to retch
    its last
    companion
    as a spare
    in case
    the supply
    is totally
    dried out.
    Engulf
    into another
    beach
    like a fish
    drinking
    its home
    filled
    with oil
    until its
    washed up
    and dead
    staring
    into the
    night
    with
    blurry glassy
    eyes
    ~1997~

    Reject
    Its your friend
    mother brother
    sister
    other half
    Gets you caught
    in a line
    in a lie
    in the truth
    That you know
    you keep
    you wear
    you hide
    In the place
    inside
    in where
    noone looks
    Its all alone
    in the heart
    the head
    the emotion
    But you reject it
    just so
    you wont
    see it
    inside you
    And it rejects
    your emptiness
    also
    ~1996~

    Angry
    Violent images
    to face upon
    created by
    the unwillingness
    to hear the
    underlying truth
    of the matter
    in which all
    shouldnt be
    forgiven but
    should be
    cursed and
    slandered
    and hated
    for the sheer
    purpose of
    survival,
    that hasnt
    been deemed
    necessary,
    nor wanted,
    nor given
    any thought of
    Angry with
    the very
    reason
    for existence
    and not
    from the
    cause of
    private
    humiliation
    that still
    manages
    to stir a
    deep seated
    emotional
    remorseful response
    to which
    cannot be
    controlled;
    The lovely anger
    that only
    fulfills a
    passionate
    dreamland
    without
    escape;
    As long as
    there is anger
    there is the
    reason
    for it
    ~1998~

  • Lady Lee
    Lady Lee

    Spice - I really like the last line of Anger - says it all

  • Solace
    Solace

    Spice, I feel like crying but you are a very deep and talented person.

  • SpiceItUp
    SpiceItUp

    Thank you Lady & Heaven...

    lately it seems that I am on again off again in a slum/funk/whatever *sigh*. My emotions have been on a very bad rollercoaster for a while---too many things to sort out............

    here is another...............

    (untitled)
    lost in a
    dreamless
    little largely
    real world
    wondering
    what it is
    exactly
    that I'm not
    supposed
    to be
    thinking
    in that
    great
    prose state
    but we all
    wish it
    would
    sometimes
    but in
    actuality
    we dont
    and nothing
    happens
    which is
    the exact
    opposite
    of the
    expected
    and in
    the end
    all is
    forgotten
    but you
    never
    can be sure
    until its over
    and even then
    you just dont
    understand
    why it is
    that you
    were wondering
    in the first place
    ~2000~

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