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by DJ 3 Replies latest jw friends

  • DJ
    DJ

    Hi All,

    I had this realization today that was bittersweet in a way. When I first left the WT I was still 99% indocrinated. As time passed ( painful time as you all can relate to) things slowly started to shift and I began to see a bit clearer every day. I began to feel the scales over my eyes slowly falling off and I as I reflect on it now it was actually a good time of my life (although I don't recommend it lol). It certainly did not feel like a good thing at the time but as the years went by I began to understand more and more about what was happening to me. Slowly but surely the ice was melting and the cold that I experienced was beginning to warm me. As everyone here knows, the pain that we've felt isn't easily put into words. Whether we suffered the effects of shunning or losing a loved one because of the blood ban or suffered abuse or any of the other nasty fruits of the WT-- slowly but surely we have all healed just a bit more each day because we told our stories to each other. We've swapped battle scars, so to speak. The power of human sharing and concern and love has been so very healing for me. I'm committed to staying here for anyone who needs an ear or a hug. It is the most ironic thing in the world to me that all of the pain that these little children have suffered at the hands of their abuser and the failure of the wt to help them is what has finally brought me to the place of being 100% healed from my own pain. I can stand up and say count me.....wtbs.....as one your walking wounded but healed thru the love of my comrades. GO (((((((((silentlambs))))))))) and roar.

    Love in Christ, dj

  • WildHorses
    WildHorses

    Hi DJ,

    I know what you mean about the scales falling off. I went through stages when I let the JW's. First fear for even daring to look at "apostate" sites. Then I went through the doubting stage. (wondering if in fact what I was learning on the net was really true). Then I felt anger at being sucked in in the first place. It's all kind of bitter sweet. I am glad i'm out but still feel bad about the ones still blinded. But for each one who finally sees the truth about the "truth" I feel joy.

    We are free.

    Shari

  • DJ
    DJ

    Hi Lilacs,

    Me too. I feel joy when someone is freed too. It's only the beginning of a tough road for most though. It's been 6-7 years since I first realized that I was being deceived. I still get freaked when I think about all of the wasted time. I am thrilled to finally be at this place of acceptance now. I want to help as many as I can. Thanks for responding! Oh btw..my favorite flowers are Lilac's. They smell soooo good. Love, dj

  • heathen
    heathen

    Well I'd hate to see it turn into a witch hunt, but if they have solid evidence of this kind of abuse to show in court then I would like to see justice done to protect further abuse to children.I never was JW but related to some and I have never heard anything about this abuse till I found this site and was pretty shocked to say the least.

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