Hi Cyn,
I have always been an upbeat positive person. My body doesn't agree with this.
I had a breakdown a few months back, not a bad one, just laying on my deck after working in the yard unable to move for about 12 hours.
What woke me was my dog licking me in my face. I knew I had to call for help, but since I had been working in the yard and I was muddy, I had to get dressed for the paramedics.
I crawled to the garage, only took me 3 hours.
In the garage was my dryer, which held clean clothes, not clothes I would pick for a ambulance ride, so after another hour I crawled inside to my living room. Where I stayed, with my finger on 911 in case something was really wrong with me.
I laid on the couch for aseveral hours.......I had an appointment at work. I called co-workers I love and trust, told them I couldn' make the appointment, if they could help me.
Two co-workers came over ASAP
They begged me to go to the hospital, I declined.
I am invincable.
They stayed with me for hours...I sent them away........finally, pesky friends.
The trauma continued, it was Mothers Day, I went to a festivity in my honor, and a movie.
I thought I was going to die.
My son, a paramedic scared me into seeing a doctor, he said if I was having a heart attack, the effects could never be reversed.....he was pissed at me.
I went to a doctor the next day.
EKG , Blood work, all the crap.
Diagnosis? Anxiety
Put me on Effexor
Man it was great!
Went off of it because of holistic remedies for other things.
Going back on it.
My advice?
Major anxiety and depression...go for the drugs...........when you get better, go for natural
Hang in their Cyn