Hello!
Just want to tell you, that I knew an ex jw in a latin forum where I participate sometimes. He's from another town and ask me to call him. At the begging we only email us, just to be sure who is he. He left the org some months ago and I a year ago. I left the org, just because I'd doupts and how I felt inside. But he left it because what he discover from the org. I just read the Crisis book from R. Franz some months ago. Finally we call each other and this weekend he'll come to my town where I live. He gonna stay with another ex jw and they will have an ex jw assambly with others. I won't go because I don't feel ready for that and I don't know if I will in the future. I don't want to live always in the past... And also I feel sometimes I'm in two sides, one day I feel pain because of the lies of the WT and the other day I feel that I miss the spiritual things. I admit that also I get in confuse because a cute jw still write me sometimes... The thing is that the elders are investigating my new friend ex jw. I told him that I'm very scary, because I don't want that the elders discover that I read "apostate stuff" and ask me question about what I think and what I'm doing. I don't want to allow them anyway, because they didn't visit me when I left the meetings last year. Anyway I'm afraid, my friend understand me, but I don't want that he feel bad because of me. I'm gonna see him just this weekend withouth other ex jw, but never knows who can see us, I don't know if I'm exaggerating. And don't know if I have to see him or should I wait for a some period of time?
I wanted to thank you for always giving me support in this forum, I really feel that I've people who cares and understand my feelings. Thanks a lot!
Ardilla_girl