Consider this before Persuing Relationships

by Xandria 3 Replies latest jw friends

  • Xandria
    Xandria

    I know many of us have had relationship issues and many are looking for relationships very vigorously. To the point of actually pushing the opposite sex away. Sending them running for the hills. We all want to be loved and accepted for who we are, rather than who we are percieved to be.

    Perhaps you need to take a look at yourself before persuing so quickly. Have a good relationship with yourself first. Then persue the opposite sex... For those of you who feel you are ready for the safari. Happy Hunting.

    The Safari continues.. during the relationship.. and even in marriage. ah the survivor of the fittest.

    You feel ready for a new relationship. You love yourself. You have dealt with childhood issues and those from past relationships. You are clear about the reasons for wanting a relationship. You are willing and able to put in the work that creating a committed, loving relationship requires. Now that you know you are ready, how do you find a partner who is the right person for a committed, loving relationship? How do you know he or she is, indeed, the one for you?

    If you are in fact ready for a relationship, you should ask yourself the following questions upon meeting someone: "Are you (my potential partner) ready for a committed relationship?" "Are you the one for me?" Perhaps, more importantly, "Are you not the one for me?" According to divorce statistics, in over 50 percent of marriages, the answer of one or both partners is: "You are not the one for me." Hopefully, by making a careful choice up front, you will not become a statistic later on.

    In evaluating the questions "Are you the one for me?" or "Are you not the one for me?" it is important to be honest with yourself and your potential partner. Both of you need to know what each wants out of life. Discuss your dreams, goals, lifestyles, hobbies, finances, religious and political beliefs, and desires for having children. Nowadays, many relationships end because partners allow the relationship to further develop without first discussing these topics. Truth and honesty are of the utmost importance in relationships. Lies-even subtle deception-cannot provide a solid foundation for a loving, committed relationship.

    How do we decide whether someone is right or wrong for us? Your decision should be based, in part, on your expectations of a relationship. Identifying the right person with whom to build a relationship is difficult for so many of us. We are often influenced by past experiences when choosing our partners. These past experiences, especially childhood ones, form mental moulds. They are shaped by early childhood memories, and one's relationship history with parents, siblings, and other family members. These moulds tell us about who we are, our assets and weaknesses, what we deserve, and what we should expect. As a child just beginning to learn about the world, you take every opportunity to do so. So, each time you witness an event as a child, you make a mental note of what you should learn from that type of experience. We learn about relationships between people from our parents' relationship, or from other relationships that we witness. We learn about ourselves from how others treat us; and we learn about the world fro other's reactions to our actions. Eventually, we have a complete "how-to" guide for getting along in the world. We take our guide with us into adulthood and use it to navigate through life. Because this guide is such an integral part of us-our inner child-we protect it at all cost. We seek experiences that confirm it. We avoid experiences that challenge it. We choose partners based on a childhood schema of "how relationships work," which we learnt from our parents. An extreme example of this type of selection is that of a child beaten by a parent. In adulthood, that person is more likely to become involved in one or more abusive relationships. Although unhealthy, painful and potentially fatal, many are caught in this vicious cycle. Why? Because their how-to guides dictate "Men hurt women; women hurt men; or vice versa. I will get hurt if I stand up for myself. I don't deserve to be treated with dignity." For those who have suffered a lifetime of abuse, this is not a conscious choice; but it is deeply linked to their fundamental beliefs about relationship dynamics.

    Many of us have found ourselves with partners who behave frighteningly like our parents, and that our actions often mirror those of a same-sex parent. Unconsciously, there is safety in familiarity. This is why we sometimes choose partners who are wrong for us, even when we consciously tell ourselves that we do not want to be in a relationship like that of our parents. Reshaping emotional moulds requires a thorough examination of childhood lessons, as well as their impact on one's adult life. When we are free of the denial surrounding our childhood lessons, we are on the road to leaving them behind. Healing childhood trauma, altering childhood messages, and changing old patterns is an ongoing and gradual process. The more changes one makes, the easier it is to build upon these changes; and the easier it is to identify whether someone is right or wrong for us.

    Today, I understand the moulds and beliefs that were part of my growth to adulthood. I recognize how they influenced my adult decision-making processes and my relationships. Much of my acquired knowledge was wrong, which resulted in poor choices and unhappiness in my life. I have taken the time to examine these moulds and beliefs that were passed down to me. In all honesty, as a result of this examination, I have discarded about 95% of this inherited knowledge over the past several years. There is an old expression, "Out with the old; in with the new." I have reshaped my own moulds and beliefs to better serve me. They allow me to make better choices for myself that are not based on the influences of others. Today, I express my true individuality-who I really am, and not whom others felt I should be. How wonderful it is to stand in front of a mirror and recognize your true reflection, instead of someone else's reflection.

    I encourage everyone to honestly and thoroughly examine the moulds, beliefs, and knowledge that were passed down to you by others. Trust me, it is a painful process of questioning and cross-examining issues that have been with us our entire lives. This emotional housekeeping, unpleasant as it might be, will reveal many truths and confront one's many fears. It scared the living daylights out of me! My fears brought me to the early realization that; much of my own knowledge was a bunch of lies and rubbish. As a result, I replaced what was entirely wrong for me with a new set of beliefs and agreements by which to live. The same can happen for you, providing that you are prepared to work at it.

    Embarking on this journey will allow you to make better choices that create more success, wealth, and happiness in your life. It will also facilitate recognizing the person with whom to share a rising, loving relationship.

    Hope you find happiness.

    Xandria

  • Lost Diamond
    Lost Diamond

    Xandria,

    Thank you for your thoughts.....much to think about here.

  • SPAZnik
    SPAZnik

    Perhaps you need to take a look at yourself before persuing so quickly. Have a good relationship with yourself first.

    YES, YES, YES! Oh, YES!

    Holy crap, what you posted has been like my personal slogan/goal for nearly a year now. I'm workin' on it. At first I felt incredibly self-centered and guilty about doing this, but I've been doing what I can to stick to my guns on it, and it's a longer process than I initially anticipated, but it is soooooo paying off! :)

    The advice you posted is excellent. I like that you said "relationships" in a generic way, cuz that's one thing I've learned the hard way. The principle applies not just to romance, but to primary or relative/family type relationships, and to friendships.

    Not easy to do either. Firstly, for practical reasons. Time, energy, cooperation by others affected/involved, yer own hormones (lol), incredibly tempting offers that happen along the moment u decide to take time for yourself, etc. Secondly, and perhaps most importantly, taking a good hard look at yourself involves taking stock not only of the strengths, but also the weaknesses. Working on each weakness takes hard work. I have a lot of 'em myself ;) Thirdly, there are fears. The fear that being alone for a while, means you'll be alone forever. There's also the "typecasters". People who, no matter what you are doing, are gonna try an' judge or label u for it, imputing the best or the worst motives, inaccurately.

    It's so common for people to run from one relationship to another. Romance wise and friendship wise. Until last February, I think I did that myself to some extent. And I've been one of the most independant people I know. Without taking enough solitary time to figure "me" out enuf. I'm trying to shift from being reactive to proactive.

    I've been trying to follow this advice though. Far from perfect, but I'm definitely improving and learning. I see progress. (Maybe there's hope for me yet!) At first I thought it only applied to romance, but I'm learning that it applies to friendship type relationships just as much. The more I work at applying this concept to my life, the happier I am and the healthier I feel on so many levels.

    Knowing yourself and having a good healthy relationship with yourself are two very different things in my opinion.

    Knowing yourself is a first step, involving taking stock of where you have been, where you are, and where you'd like to be.
    There are checks needed along the way.

    Having a good healthy relationship, with self, involves more than that. I think it involves making the necessary changes. Doing something about what you find in yourself. And doing it at a reasonable pace for you.

    I have a friend who absolutely "can not" be alone at this point in their development. I've known many people like this.
    I don't think it is just a sign of extraversion, I believe it is a sign of emotional problems on some level.
    (That's not to say that the ability to be alone is a surefire sign of emotional health either.
    On the contrary, I think a balance is needed and this takes continuous adjustments).

    Some checks and balances I have to keep doing are:
    Do you honestly take enough time for yourself?
    Have you addressed outstanding issues?
    What do you really want to accomplish and what are you doing to get there?
    Are you honestly addressing your own issues. What are you doing? What else could you be doing?
    Are you taking all of this at a pace reasonable for you?
    Where are you really at?

    These are things that a person has to answer for themselves. It can be difficult to get brutally honest with yourself.
    I suspect that is partly why some people must be surrounded by people and noise/static at ALL times.
    Input from others can be very useful, but can also sometimes distract a person from ever really reaching enuf silence and clarity initially to operate off of.
    That said, I also think people should be permitted to take it all at a pace they can handle. It's their life.

    I feel really lucky. Once I left the borg, I was able to work towards being completely alone. I didn't have dependants except for odd dependant friend. With everything I was going through, this had some scary moments, but I was able to start from scratch and this sped up the process for me.

    Here's some suggestions that have worked for me:
    Figure out that you deserve to be healthy and that it's up to you to make that happen.
    First work towards being alone. Find alone time and RESPECT that.
    Tell yourself you deserve it, and keep telling yourself that, even if it feels like you are lying at first.
    Start by detaching from some unhealthy toxic or even questionable relationships. Try and do this in a respectful way.
    Keep it as your decision, not their fault. The blame game, is just that, a game.
    Implement measures to not be swallowed whole by the solitude.
    Journalling helps. Counsellors help. Medication helps. Music/hobbies help. Exercise helps. Sleep helps.
    Use your "alone" time for constructive stuff.

    Some challenges I've faced and that I'm currently working on:
    Loving myself as much as my neighbor, so to speak.
    Trusting myself enough.
    Sometimes I'm all or nothing. This has a good side and a bad side, but ultimately lacks the balance i seek.
    Allowing myself to feel emotion, and expressing that without fear.

    Sometimes I talk too much, and other times not enuf. (Sumfin else ta work on, I guess).

    SPAZ

  • Xandria
    Xandria

    Spaznik,

    I am glad you are taking the time to take a good hard look ( yeah at times, it can be brutal) at yourself. It is not the most easiest of processes. Because we tend to like to lie to ourselves. Repeat a litany of "You are fine, you are fine", like a small child who is afraid of the monster under the bed.

    Once you, know and understand your own feelings then you are better prepared for a relationship. Romantic, Business, Friendship or otherwise. I too, recently brought myself up short on a issue. I realized I was beating myself up for something that I had no CONTROL over. IT wasn't my fault and I was taking a false burden on it. I realize this person who was in a "management" position had some issues of her own. That she needed to deal with it, but was unable to and it came out on how she treated others around her. This will come back to haunt her in different ways. She was un-happy in her personal and business life. It was quite apparent by her attitude not only in her performance as but by her whole out look. Which was bluntly put in a meeting. She stated that she could careless about your sucess or advancement if you did not like the situation or wanted to better it. Tough LUCK she was not going to help you better yourself or a situation. Thusly, she cuts off her nose to spite her face.

    By that demeanor and thinking, she is limiting herself. Management Advancement, is based on how well those you manage do, so if she doesn't care enough to help those under her advance or produce better results. You can imagine the out come, sooner or later it will catch up and explode in your face. Life has a funny way of doing that.. the very thing you are trying not to face will force you one way or another to deal with it or hit rock bottom. You can hide your head in the sand for so long. It is allowing yourself to fail, to make a mistake and then picking yourself up, then dusting her or him off.

    I made a choice for me to stop allowing her to make me miserable. But change is painful at times. As the saying goes you cannot make a cake with out breaking a few eggs. When that happens you go forward.

    I think as emotionally retarded we were growing up and stunted as humans. We have a lot to learn on interpersonal relationships. How we deal with ourselves will mirror how we deal with others.

    I wish all the best in this journey called life. May we reach the final destination a richer person for the experiences this life can afford us.

    Take care,

    X.

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