Episode 13 - Fernando is shunned by Jehovah's Witnesses - Is Out Now

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  dubstepped

  Episode 13 - Fernando is shunned by Jehovah's Witnesses, is out now.

  One of the hallmarks of growing up as one of Jehovah’s Witnesses is that feeling that you’re never “good enough”. It drives a lot of the depression seen in the cult, and is often something that people that leave take with them. Imagine if instead of just feeling less than because maybe you aren’t hitting some goal of hours spent knocking on doors or taking care of responsibilities in the congregation that are expected of you the problem was something as personal and natural as your sexuality. In this episode we get an intimate look into what it’s like to be gay growing up as one of Jehovah’s Witnesses and it’s impact on Fernando, which I’m sure reflects at least parts of the experiences of many others.

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  blownaway

  It is defiantly there. I remember one elder talking about when the cong. was getting new chairs. That they should not be too comfortable. Now gone Schroder was an asshat. I swear he would go home and whip his own back. You could never do enough. My wife felt like that. It was never good enough. I felt it I just did not really give a crap.
  
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  dubstepped

  Well blownaway, we are just good for nothing slaves. We have to pummel our body and lead it as such.

  I eventually got healthy enough myself where I questioned why god would send his son to die for such worthless pieces of shit like us. Of course, to me it's all fairy tales now, but I digress.

  Can you imagine though how tough it must be, on top of that, to realize your very sexuality is something you can never beat out of yourself. It was interesting to see Fernando try to do as much as he could organizationally as if somehow he could outrun his nature. Pretty much heartbreaking.