Tonight I took the children to a grief support group

by cruzanheart 7 Replies latest jw friends

  • cruzanheart
    cruzanheart

    It's called "Journey of Hope" and aimed at helping children and their parents cope with the loss of a family member or loved one. It was at a local Methodist church. Dinner is served at 6:30, provided by different church groups, and then at 7:00 we break off into our groups. The children are grouped by age, and the parents are grouped according to their loss, i.e., if it was a spouse you go with one group and if it was a parent or other loved one you go with the other group.

    We got there early because we had to meet with a counselor, who looked over the 14-page form I had to fill out. The children had one page each to describe how they were feeling. The counselor explained what would happen next, so we joined the group and had dinner. It was excellent: a men's group from another Methodist church had done dinner, and the guys made a huge salad, lots of lasagna and fresh bread, and very kindly remembered that children often don't like lasagna, so they also had Kraft macaroni & cheese and peanut butter sandwiches. Something for everyone!

    After eating, the moderator mentioned that there were several new families and asked for anyone having a birthday in March to come up and we all sang "Happy Birthday" (that still feels weird). Then the new children were told to come up and pick a stuffed bear out of a large sack. That is their Journey Bear, which will go with them on their journey through grief. Well, that really broke the ice for my two, who adore bears. Jackson had been sitting very still and shaking a little, and he told me he was scared to be there. I told him I was too but we'd find something to like. The bears relaxed him and he was smiling and went willingly with his group. The children talked about the death of their loved ones and made a paper treasure box in which they put a piece of paper. On the paper they were to write what good things they would want to find at the end of a rainbow. Jackson also drew a picture of the things that Grandpa had given him. After they came out of their group they were positively bubbling with good feelings and excitedly told me about the new friends they'd made.

    I met with two other women who had lost parents recently and we told our stories. Our counselor is an RN and a grief counselor at a local hospital, so she was able to let us talk and then offer comfort and practical suggestions.

    I was amazed at the love that was in that group tonight. I don't mean the sloppy, let's-have-a-group-hug type of love, but just a genuine caring for one another and a sharing of common grief. The men's group obviously were sincerely happy to feed us, and I didn't detect any hidden agendas.

    Is this what I've missed all these years?

    Nina

  • Brummie
    Brummie
    After they came out of their group they were positively bubbling with good feelings and excitedly told me about the new friends they'd made.

    That is just GREAT news cruzanheart, thrilled to hear you and they have found support and genuine folk there.

    Is this what I've been missing all these years?

    It sure is, these groups have something JWs could only hope for.

    Thanks for sharing

    Brummie

  • xenawarrior
    xenawarrior

    (((((((((((((Nina))))))))))))))))

    This is awesome!!! Sounds like a wonderful group. You will all get so much out of this!!!

    When my dad died I was in 5th grade and I didn't think that it bothered me all that much because he had multiple sclerosis and had been so sick most of the very short years I had with him. In the end he started losing his mind and was quite abusive towards us. He didn't mean it- he didn't even have any control over it.

    Well, the thing was, his death didn't bother me -not in the way that it should have I guess. I didn't grieve much at all and my mom became really worried about me. I had stuffed it somewhere inside. She took me to a counselor right away and it helped some. Back then (when they still had covered wagons) they didn't work with children the way they can now.

    It wasn't until a couple of years ago that I finally met that loss head on and realized the affect it really did have on me all of those years. And once I walked through that, it felt like someone took a piano off my back. It was like the "background noise" in my life that I didn't realize was irritating me until it was shut off.

    You are doing a wonderful thing for your children. I admire your family a great deal Nina. You and Chris are doing an awesome job at this living thing !!!

    Many hugs from the north !!

    XW

  • Double Edge
    Double Edge

    Grief support groups can be very helpful to those who are open. Sounds like you had a positive experience. Glad to hear that you are moving forward.

    Is this what I've been missing all these years?

    Yes! I've never been a JW, but it sounds like a good church group.... look around, they're everywhere.

  • Big Tex
    Big Tex

    Ah sweetie, I just wish I could have been there with you guys. I hate working nights.

    Love you lots.

  • LyinEyes
    LyinEyes

    Nina it sounds like a wonderful way to get thru the healing ,,,,,,for you and the kids, I am so happy you found this way to get your feelings out. It is going to help the kids to understand you more too and the grief that you feel. I bet there are days you just don't want to get out of bed and at least the kids will know that Mommie just needs time to feel sad and rest and that it is not the end of the world for them.

    I can only say I wish I would have had this help back when my mom died. My own father wouldnt speak her name, and of course the witnesses didnt talk of it either. For so many years, I felt like XW said, I just didnt really understand how hard my mom's death hit me. I tried to be brave, not cry, not miss her, I even tried to be mad at her,,,, I tried to think I would see her in the resurrection again, that was my only hope and I had to read that hope from the bible , no one really tried to understand what I was going thru, I was only 18.

    I know your pain will always be there, and you will always have questions as to why, so many questions, but I am sure they will tell you things you may have not heard of.......... If I lived there I would go with you. I still think I need to talk to someone , a professional about many things, and it has been a open wound for so long now. I would have rather grieved like I should have all those years ago. Putting off the grief, or ignoring only prolongs it, it will always come back to you,,,,,,,,,,so I am so happy you are getting the help you need right now.

    Love ya bunches, Dede

  • lisavegas420
    lisavegas420

    Nina,

    What a wonderful post. Thank you for sharing.

    Just a thought......When was the last time you went to a Thursday night meeting, and left feeling good, inspired, listened to and loved?

    Love to you and your family,

    Lisa

  • joannadandy
    joannadandy

    This sounds like such a wonderful group!

    I am so glad you and your children have a resource like this for yourselves...the kindness of "worldly people" is amazin' in'it?

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