Easter/Fatherhood

by zanex 1 Replies latest jw friends

  • zanex
    zanex

    This last weekend was easter and I had the pleasure of spending it with my daughter, my ex and her parents. They are locals and have been very accomodating with the whole divorce. The ex-in-laws are still good people and they have good hearts and a mindset that isnt religiously controlling. They are good for my little girl. Anyway, my daughter had painted a little wooden egg in her little two year old splotchy painting style with random colors and no actualy design but it felt good when her grandmother gave me the egg (grandma helped my daughter paint it) and told me that it had been painted by my little spud for me for easter. I didnt quite know what to say. I actually still havent let the egg out of my personal contact. I have it in my backpack. I feel kind of silly bringing it around with me but for some strange odd reason it makes me feel good and comfortable. The holiday thing is very much starting to warm me up. With every new thing that happens I go through a plethora of feelings and emotions.

    I also had the disturbing experience of watching a movie that someone on this board had suggested, "Savage Messiah" it was quite disturbing yet in some small ways oddly reminiscent of the jw mind-control that allowed me to just accept whatever I was told as the truth with no proof. The extreme nature of THAT cultish family in the movie was sick. It twisted me kind of hard. Every little bit of de-conditioning that I get is good for me though..I am rapidly learning that the process to de-condition a mind is oftentimes not the most pleasureable of experiences. At any rate thats all I had to say. No poems this time. I have actually made a file of ALL the random poetry that I had posted on this board and I was suprised at how much I had put out...anywayz...laterz from this side of the zanexiville complex.

    -Z-

  • Mystery
    Mystery

    Very touching. It is the little simple things that matter, to her also.

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