Diary of an Unknown Witness

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  • ukpimo
    ukpimo

    A rewording of "Diary of an Unborn Child", applied to unknown or misunderstood Jehovah’s Witnesses trapped in a loveless organization:




    Diary of an Unknown Witness

    OCTOBER 5:

    Today my life began. I dedicated my life to Jehovah. My friends do not know it yet, but it is I already. And I am to be a Witness for Jehovah. I shall act with faith and conviction to declare the most important message to mankind. Just about everything is settled though, even the fact that I love this worldwide Brotherhood.

    OCTOBER 19:

    Some say that I am not a real Witness yet, that only my mother Organization exists with its many Witnesses. But I am a real person, just as a small crumb of bread is yet truly bread. My mother is. And I am.

    OCTOBER 23:

    At the Convention, my mouth is just beginning to open now. Just think, in a year or so I shall be laughing and later talking with great knowledge and experience. I know what my first word will be: YES!

    OCTOBER 25:

    My heart began to beat today all by itself when I set out on the Lord's work. From now on it shall gently beat for the rest of my life without ever stopping to rest! And after many years it will tire in this old system. It will not stop, and I shall never die at all.

    NOVEMBER 2:

    I am growing spiritually bit every day. My Christian qualities are beginning to take shape. But I have to wait a long time yet before those little efforts will raise me to my mother Organization's arms in full-time service, before these little arms will be able to gather disciples and I can figuratively embrace my Father Jehovah.

    NOVEMBER 12:

    Some return visits are beginning to form on my route. Funny how small they are! I’ll be able to please my Mother Organization.

    NOVEMBER 20:

    It wasn’t until today that I'm sure the elders told the Circuit Overseer on his visit how well I've been doing spiritually. Oh, how happy he must be! Are you happy, mother Organization?

    NOVEMBER 25:

    My elders and Circuit Overseer are probably considering appointing me to a position of responsibility. But they don’t even know that before becoming a Witness I wanted to be a little girl. I wanted to be called Kathy. I am getting so big in the truth already. But let's put my past behind me!

    DECEMBER 10:

    Now my hair is growing. It is smooth and bright and shiny. I wonder how the elders think of me? I haven't been appointed yet.

    DECEMBER 13:

    I am just about able to see Truth about the Truth. In the congregation, it is dark around me. When mother Organization brings me into the Kingdom Hall it appears to be full of sunshine and flowers, but this is not true. But what I want more than anything is to see my mother Organization love me for who I am. How do you feel about that dear Governing Body?

    DECEMBER 24:

    I wonder if mother Organization hears the whispering of my heart? Some young ones come into the world a little spiritually sick. But my heart is strong and healthy, full of love for God and Christ. It beats so evenly: tup-tup, tup-tup. You’ll have a healthy little child, mom!

    DECEMBER 28:

    Today the Organization killed me.




  • Fallen_Winter
    Fallen_Winter

    When I first began to study, JW.Org appeared to be very welcoming and friendly. As my studies progressed, I began to see a lot of hate. My Bible Study Conductor would speak very ill of Catholic people. It didn’t end there. My Bible Study Conductor taught me that anyone who was not a witness was unclean and that I should maintain my distance from them and not trust them. The problem with that was that I had individuals in my life who I considered friends and I didn’t agree with what my Bible Study Conductor was teaching me about others. Overtime it began to appear that my voice and opinions were being diminished and what stood was what JW.Org stated. Yes, I can see someone in JW.org slowly dying whether they are a study or a Jehovah’s Witness.

  • blondie
    blondie

    Fallen Winter, most if not all of us here, reached this point of understanding, and many of us left the WTS in one way or another. But our lives could and many be rebuilt, distancing us from all those circulating thoughts and replacing them with positive ones. Love Blondie

  • Bribie
    Bribie

    I remember presenting that very Awake article in 1980 in New Zealand!

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