I know. It is useless for you to contact me, I already know that according to the new update of the governing body, you can contact me.
But the problem is... you can only invite me to meetings, and at most say "hello" once I'm there.
I already know.
So, if you really want to know how I'm doing, even if it's irrelevant for the purposes of this contact, I'll tell you.
I am not well. I'm depressed and full of psychotropic drugs. Of course, being isolated from everyone I knew and loved didn't help.
Here's how I am.
And for a thousand reasons, there is no question of becoming an "associate" in the congregation again.
Ergo, it's useless.
There's no point in contacting me, because that's the only goal.
It's not out of a rush of love. I cannot judge your individual consciences, but I know well that if you contact me there is only one purpose, it is a well-targeted contact. It's not out of sincere interest.
So, I already told you.
If you delude yourself that my state of mind changes, just because you can say "come to the meeting" and "hello" to me, knowing that I will not join again for the reasons you already know, you are wrong.
But I say this with great pain.
If you are under the illusion that your organization can improve its reputation with this clearly strategic move, you are wrong.
But I say this with great pain.
If you think that people will forget all the years you ignored your loved ones as unworthy criminals, you are wrong.
But I say this with great pain.
If you delude yourself that we are all idiots, you are wrong.
But I say this with great pain.
If you delude yourself that this falsely kind gesture will erase years of intense pain, well...
You are wrong.
I love you, but you don't love me.