OMG......................how did I last 12 years in that mindless cult????????
I had the opportunity over the weekend to talk to a couple of dubs, not by choice, but rather by misfortune. Why I say misfortune is because of the dumb conversations that took place with them. It's been a long time since my hubby and I have been to a meeting so our exposure to JW thinking has been very little if none at all. Hence, conversing with dubs is proving VERY testing and frustrating.
A brother dropped in the other night, and although it was apparent that he has been doing alot of thinking about the borg etc, his ability to rationalise and justify was frightening. The twisted use of scripture, the 'imperfect men' answer, 'the jws have jehovah's spirit directing them'.............etc, etc..........just drove me mad. But I must say that when I told him about the UN scandal, his jaw dropped, while trying so hard to not look shocked and horrified.
Then the next day hubby and I bumped into another dub who mentioned that he hadn't seen us at meetings for a long time. My hubby told him as plain as day that we just weren't going anymore, we are sick of the policies that protect pedos and how much power the elders are given and abused. Then the crap flowed from his mouth, how no matter what anyone did to him, they would never stop him serving the true god jehovah. That jehovah allows men to make mistakes etc, etc, etc...............crap, crap, crap!
As hubby and I walked away from each conversation we just couldn't believe the level of brain-washing and control the WTS has over these people. When people can't think for themselves to the point that their natural feelings and reasoning is taken over by rationalising, and being more concerned about protecting the reputation of an organization rather than hating the protection of pedophiles....................you have got to wonder what is in these peoples heads. I know I was in it too once, and that I was a part of the crap that goes on there, but when I had to make a choice between right and wrong, there was no way I would put the WTS's name and reputation above my kids safety, or being truthful to people at the door. When I found out about the lies and corruption I had to leave, there was nothing else to do or think about.
These people who defend the borg and all it's filthy activities, after coming to know about them, are responsible for their actions and choices. I have concluded after speaking with dubs, that they are sticking with the borg for some personal gain. Whether it's to play it safe for protection at armageddon, or to have privelages and status now, maybe to control their spouses or children...............whatever the reason, they are being selfish, responsible and therefore reprahensible. I'm sick of hearing their answers, I'm sick of their reasoning, I'm sick of their sick minds.
It freaks me out sometimes when I think I was with them once, but it's never to late to change and stop being a part of some sick and disfunctional lifestyle. Every person on earth has free will and as far as I'm concerned every dub that stays in the borg after knowing what the WTS has done are disgusting. That's the conclusion I've come to after the conversations I had with dubs over the weekend. I use to feel sorry for them, or think they were just naive, but I now believe it has to do with corrupt thinking and feeling.
I hope I never have to feel the frustration of another conversation with a dub again................I don't think I can take anymore.
Has anyone else had similair conversations and feelings?
That's my whine for the week, now I'll have a red.
Cheers, Bliss