memories

by fairy 8 Replies latest watchtower beliefs

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  fairy

  i was feeling a little low in spirits today...just thought i would write down some memories,.

  i remember when i was about 6 yrs old, my younger sister and i took off to the beach with a couple of other kids about the same age and we went to the beach...that was about lunchtime on a saturday and we somehow managed to get home about 8 at night....my mother must have been frantic with worry....i feel so sorry for her having to go through that.

  i remember her dragging 12 kids to the meetings and everyone was amazed that she could do that...she tried so hard to do the best for us....

  i remember when she started studying and she tried really hard to do the right thing ....my uncle who wasnt a witness use to give my mum a christmas cake and then she use to bury it in the back yard....even though when yrs went past she came to her senses and it was just a fruit cake with icing anyway.

  whenever we had problems we always went to mum....when we were sick, when we had trouble at school etc etc....

  she always had the right advice even though it may not have been what we wanted to hear...somehow she WAS always right.

  when she had to cook dinner, i never realised but she went without meat so the rest of the family could have it.

  there were 3 bedrooms in the house and we had a big garage out the back...so dad made one half of the garage into a bedroom so some of the boys could sleep out there which left a small rectangular bit..so he made that into another bedroom so 2 of the girls could have it and us other 3 girls slept in the bedroom in the house.

  i remember going to the markets with mum and dad and he would carry a sack around and put things in there they would buy and he would buy cashews....they are my favourite.

  my mum never really had a holiday in those yrs....wasnt till later on in her life when the kids were older that she would go interstate to visit one of my sisters...my dad worked a lot to bring money into the house.

  i remember when there were assemblies in another state, she would start putting money away to save for it and we stayed with other people for the assembly because she couldnt afford accommodation for 12 kids plus herself....my dad wasnt a witness.

  there are a lot more memories i have but this list would be too long...

  I love my mother sooo much and as i type this i cry because she has been gone for 3 yrs dec 12 this yr and my dad will be gone 6 yrs dec 29 this yr.

  as i got older i vowed to myself i would try not to answer my mother back or make her upset because i knew that one day she would be gone and i would never forgive myself ....I "talk" to her every night and tell her how much i love and miss her...she is my heart and my soul...

  thats all i can tell for now, there will be more another time.

  Thanks for listening
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  cruzanheart

  (((((fairy))))) I miss my dad, too. I'm glad the last words I said to him were "I love you."

  Nina
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  Nikita

  (((((((fairy)))))))) Sounds like you have some wonderful memories!

  Nikita
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  arrowstar

  ((fairy))

  Thank you for sharing your memories. My mother she been gone for several years now and sometime I still reach for the phone to call her.

  Arrowstar
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  Prisca

  (((fairy)))

  You had a wonderful, loving mother there. I've lost my mother in death too so I understand your loss.

  Loving mothers like that will never die in our hearts.
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  mizpah

  Thanks for sharing. We should never forget that there were and are decent and loving people in the organization. Many have made great sacrifices for their families and friends. Very often, the most kind and considerate were those individuals who were overlooked or took a "back seat" when it came to prominence in the congregations. But they were always there when someone was sick or needed help. They often worked hard on chores others avoided. (Cleaning of Kingdom Halls, yard work, etc.) They were and are the real treasures among Jehovah's Witnesses.

  Some years ago when articles came out about the "gifts of the holy spirit" it was noted that things like showing kindness or hospitality to others were part of the ministry work. Many Jehovah's Witnesses recognized the value of these gifts at that time. Some saw themselves more qualified for this type of ministry than going from door to door. The Society soon discouraged any such notion. Articles followed that made it clear that the door to door ministry was the only one that counted.

  You are fortunate to have such fond and loving memories of your mom, "fairy." From your description, I'm sure others treasure memories of her too. Most important of all, the memory of her is in God's book of life.
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  fairy

  I would like to thank you all for your comments.

  Its good sometimes just to write things down like this on the board as i find it gives me a release so to speak.

  My mother taught us all well, and even though we are not all perfect, we got as close as we could by the way our mother brought us up. She did the best she could in life and I am sure wherever she is she will continue to do so....
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  simplesally

  My Dad said, "No one will ever love you more than I do"..... He also said that someone might love me as much as he does, but never more. He said I was his first love, the first thing he was "in love with." (My mom and dad were pg when they got married, but he has always said that they did NOT *have to* get married. He just was not going to allow another man to raise me.
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  BLISSISIGNORANCE

  Thanks for sharing...........sometimes we need to be reminded about how precious our parents are and how fragile life is. Your story really does that.

  As I read it I felt very sad. My 19 yo son has been very difficult due to his canabbis use. He is very agressive and becomes violent. Just yesterday he had an outburst of anger and put his fist through his bedroom door..............and just minutes before that he told me how much he hates me and wishes I would die! I tell him he shouldn't say those things because if I should die after those words are spoken, he would feel terrible and suffer guilt. It would be hard on him.

  No matter how much I tell myself he doesn't really mean it, I can't help but feel very hurt. His father is already dead to suicide.

  Anyhow, I love my mum and have her so I'll make sure I tell her how much she means to me.

  Thanks Fairy for your honesty and although words will never be enough I do feel for you and hope for your peace.

  Love, Bliss.