It is normal for a person to review their beliefs, especially after such a traumatic event as disfellowshipped.
I think that many here do not believe that God is leading Jehovah's Witnesses.
Someone does not believe in God at all.
I think it is
good when we can be free in our views, no matter how much they are,
without the pressure from any Organization that teaches us to "true"
believe.
So, now I read many books on the history of the Bible text and found that there is no foundation to be sure that at least one true words after 500-year history of rewriting has reached us. If you wont find more info about this - googled
Bart Ehrman book or Nestle-Alland New Testament, where every words have many variant.
for start read this
I read grat biological works, as Dawkins "Great Show on the Earth" and other (into Russian lang) and i do not have any reason believe into Creation.
But, I still belive ino any abstract god-like force, without any "book based" reason.
What do you believe in today? Why?
Please do not condemn each other's faith - we have gone through a rather difficult path.