Truly, I had wished for more . . . so very much more.
Our love, so I believed, was beyond time and death. Your promise of true love allowed this little man to soldier on despite his every reason to bid the world goodbye.
Have I set my sights too high? I hold you dear, more so now than ever before. Yet, your inattention to my torn heart plunges me into a despair that has no boundaries. You once were attentive to my plaintive cry and offered succor that would heal my disquieting mood. Yes, ever at my side to console and to lift from the fathomless pit.
There is no question that I am needy, that I do admit. Surely, it pains me that I am a weak and ignoble excuse of a man. Nonetheless, we were a perfect match: you, the strong and giving, I the devoted and worshipful.
Where have you gone?
Where Have You Gone?
by compound complex 5 Replies latest jw friends
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compound complex
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LifesNotOver
User name changed to protect the innocent - previously known as "thereishope"
You brought me to tears this morning - beautiful! If my husband had your way with words and was willing to express his deepest emotions, I think he'd write something similar to me. I'm so very sad for him! And feel I understand him better now I've read "Where have you gone?" I'm afraid for us and I'm at a loss - the more my eyes are opened the wider and deeper the chasm dividing us becomes. I try to hide my thoughts and feelings from him, but he knows! And with so much being about him, what about me?!
Just feeling so thankful I found you folks. LifesNotOver
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compound complex
Dear LifesNotOver:
I am very grateful for your response and that you found us. I returned from a two-hour walk, trying to get my head on straight. I had to get away from the computer and my veiled cries for attention. OH, I'm all right. Poetry is a release, but I get discouraged when my heartfelt words seem unnoticed. Of course, I know better, and you have confirmed that my "pen to paper" has not been in vain.
I truly understand where you are coming from. My mate was strong and competent, I was not. However, our being poles apart emotionally became an unfathomable breach. Such words as I have written were ever at the front -- my entire life -- yet my Mediterranean self was too unpredictable, too explosive for a stable relationship. My point being, I'm glad I was here this morning for you when I myself was about to give up. May you find happiness with your flawed but worthy man.
Well, I've "given up" so many times, but here I remain! I shall continue to write.
THANK YOU!
Blessings and peace and love,
CoCo
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LV101
Poignant - you had me at "beyond!" Coco - carry on with the fluent, heartfelt, feelings. If your touch is as savoring as your words the ladies surely melt and line up for more. You can sell your gift to men -- reminds me of Tom Hanks appeal in Sleepless in Seattle and all the gaga.
Best.
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SafeAtHome
Your words express exactly how I felt 32 years ago when my (ex) husband came home one night and said he didn't want to be married anymore. Of course, he just didn't want to be married to me anymore. I was thrown into such sadness, confusion and despair, as your words describe. Of course, life moves on, thankfully, and I am in a much better place now. No denying though, sometimes love stinks.💔
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compound complex
Thank you, LV101 and SafeAtHome:
I appreciate your response and the assurance that my little fact-based tales do resonate with someone. Whatever you have suffered personally, I do regret and offer my condolences. Since I have let others down, causing pain, I can be understanding and forgiving when I have been the recipient of unbearable hurt.
Yes, life goes on and we recover -- sort of! I, too, am in a good place now, although certainly not a perfect place.
Blessings and love to you both.
CoCo
BTW: I have "Sleepless" and have watched it many times. Some movies strike a responsive chord and can be viewed over and over.