Free from the mind-f¥¢k of Wt indoctrination it is ever so clear that any aspiration one may have entertained was always judged to be bad or selfish, worldly and only those goals in accord with Wt teaching were approved and encouraged.
One example was having to look for a new job and being told by an elder that my change of employment was an opportunity to pioneer. When I shared with him that my first priority was to find work that would afford me to keep food on the table and pay the mortgage, he went on about Jesus not having a place to lay down his head and the Hebrew patriarch Abraham living in tents like a temporary resident in the promised land--This coming from a guy who lived in a $500,000 home and who thought himself as a contractor, subcontracting rather than hiring as employees, other brothers to work for him for very low pay, and enriching himself with the sweat of fellow dubs who had little education and who would often aux. pioneer so they seemed very theocratic and held up as exemplary by appointed exploiters like him.
Were you ever in a similar situation?
As a dub you cannot aspire to much other than cult approved hierarchical advancement, other than that every other aspiration is made up to be unadvisable!