Lost Souls of the WTS

by FreePeace 5 Replies latest jw friends

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  FreePeace

  I spoke with my mom earlier today on the phone. It seems that she is discouraged, and her DF'd son (me) is the only one who will give her some comfort.

  She has been trying to witness to those in nursing homes for many, many years, and runs into all kinds of roadblocks from my dad (an elder) and the congregation, to the nursing home officials. She honestly and sincerely tries to help these older people. I can't blame her for feeling some compassion toward the elderly and incapacitated.

  She says my dad yells at her and puts her down often. I know she is right. He also calls her a "damn alcoholic," and worse. The truth is, she is an alcoholic, and my dad is seriously codependent (but what JW isn't?). They fight like cats and dogs, but don't have the fortitude to make the tough decision to part ways, (like many of us have had to make.)

  They are like lost souls, desperately trying to validate their own existence. After so many years, and so many promises, still nothing…no Armageddon; no Paradise Earth; no nothing. They have traded all their years and youthful vitality for empty promises…a handful of shit. Now, at close to 70 years old, they are emotionally and expectationally bankrupt. They are tired…just tired.

  What makes it so tragic is the fact that they simply cannot see the real "Truth." The WTS stole their youth; stole their dignity; stole their hopes and dreams; stole their humanity; expropriated their ten-der affections for the world of humanity at large; in short, gave them a good and thorough mind-fucking (sorry about the language, just couldn't find a better way to express it.)

  Some of that mind-rape carries over to those of us who have left; and we are all so desperately trying to get past it. Some of us do quite well, others of us struggle.

  Wouldn't it be great if we could just get past our parents? Do you know what I mean Fark? I know at some point their misery will be over. This saddens me but also gives me a glimmer of hope. What a tragedy it is when our lives would be better without someone we are close to in them. At least we who left the WTS at a relatively young age can pursue a better life. But for those we care about who are still enslaved…oh well.

  Eleanor Roosevelt said, "The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams." It is about time to finally go after those illusive dreams, and leave the past to its own.

  Hope this is not too depressing. Just wanted to vent.

  FreePeace

  "The World is my country, and to do good, my religion." --Thomas Paine

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  Farkel

  Hi Freepeace,

  : They are like lost souls, desperately trying to validate their own existence. After so many years, and so many promises, still nothing…no Armageddon; no Paradise Earth; no nothing. They have traded all their years and youthful vitality for empty promises…a handful of shit. Now, at close to 70 years old, they are emotionally and expectationally bankrupt. They are tired…just tired.

  I vividly remember forty years ago when your folks and the Jones's, Elmers, Peterson and Delullos would come over to our house for a nice meal, laughs and a thoroughly enjoyable evening. My dad loved his barbecue and my parents loved to entertain the Friends. Of course, alcohol flowed freely, and so did lips after a while. I had just entered my teens. I played Kingdom Songs and everyone sang with JOY!

  Your mother was a beautiful redhead, so full of life and vigor and was always very fond of me. Your dad was revered as a "scholar." After all, he had been a missionary with your mom and Bethelite. He spoke Japanese. We were all awed by his "spiritual maturity" and knowledge.

  My folks were young too, and full of that same life. There was no drudgery in the religion back then. After all, Armageddon was just around the corner, and they were all so YOUNG and energetic.

  Like your parents, mine are also washed up, tired, used. Even after a full fifty years in the organization, my mother has one one peer to share her misery with: your mom. My dad was temporarily in a rest home, and will soon be permanently in one. He cannot remember a thing about those days, any more; the joy, the fun, the old friends.

  Will the Watchtower Corporation (or even those in their own congregation) mourn when they're gone. I doubt it. They're still too busy trying to save their own asses. Fools. They'll all end up the same way.

  My life is pretty low right now, but thank whoever, I'm not stuck in that blood-sucking, lying cult anymore.

  Thanks for sharing that, Freepeace. I just want to cry when I think about what our folks have lost and what could have been for them.

  Farkel
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  think41self

  FreePeace and Farkel,

  My heart goes out to you both. Yes it's sad, a tragedy that they have wasted their whole lives dedicated to a lie!

  But look at it this way, their suffering will soon be over, and in their minds and heart, they fully expect to wake up in Paradise earth where all of their problems will be magically fixed. For older folks, that's not such a bad way to go. As you say, it is too late for them to see "the truth about the truth". So let them die with their beliefs intact, and let it comfort them as it will. I can only be thankful for myself and for my children that we escaped before we had used up our whole lives in a vain pursuit. I will take whatever positives I can...from wherever I can.

  And Farkel, you are not too old that you can't appreciate the freedom you enjoy to think what you want and say what you want! You're never too old for that! You help many people on this board, you are making a valuable contribution to the human race. What more could any man want?

  think41self
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  Carmel

  The next step to look forward to is their funeral! They'll likely be pushing up daisies going to their graves with the "hope" of resurrections. Too bad that they couldn't have their cake when it was offered. Life has so much to offer if one doesn't have to look at it with fecal covered lenses supplied by the FDS. My parents held on to the "dream" until the end, but the next generation has lost it and the following generation is almost all "out". There is hope, but it is likely only for the most part, going to be experianced by todays kids who are able to climb out of the cave.

  Think and Farkel, I wish it were different, but sadly, I think our parents have nothing else to cling to but their vain imaginations fed by the publishing corporation. Don't let it get you down. Ours and the next generation will compensate for the past.

  carmel
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  DannyBear

  Free and Fark,

  Way to many emotions expressed here for me to deal with. All I can say is everything you both expressed, I have been trying to deal with since I left in 1980. I was only 32 years old at the time, but I find myself resenting all the time wasted. I can't even imagine the dark hole one would face, at 70 coming to the realization you had been duped. Like T4S said its probably better that they don't have to face it.

  Farkel I remember those sing alongs, and bbq's and get together's, they were filled with euphoria and great expectations. Even though you may not be able to replace or find the same intensity of feeling we all shared....our life now is based on reality not pipe dreams or the fanatical musings of some little pipsqueaks overactive imagination, who happened to be heir to a publishing empire, allowing him to promise the moon, but deliver squat. Just to bad ole JR and FF had to die....their toes should have been held to the fire by all those who can remember their blatant lies and deceptions.

  Farkel, Freepeace you are both keeping those fires burning. Many toes are burning right now on Columbia Heights, Brooklyn. Or wherever those sneaky fds guys now hang their shingle. Probably all very nicely situated at Patterson. Meals maid service and all your needs, no questions asked...every person you see, worships your every utterance....poor old bastards have more that they deserve!

  Danny
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  Pathofthorns

  Nice posts guys. Sad but nice expressions.

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