Desiring a relationship with God and/or drawing closer to God, I feel is commendable. There is a certain movement into depths deeper than phenomenal.
However, words like "relationship" and "drawing closer" imply that God, or the Source of all, is Itself --phenomenal, an object, a thing separate and apart from us which we must move closer to so we can have a relationship.
We are taught this, programmed this from a very young age, and the world around us and the mess that it's in seems to support a God far away, if there even is such a thing.
What if -- there is no such "thing"; no such thing as an objective God that we can have a relationship with, or drawn closer to?
Perhaps God, is too big for that.
Perhaps the only separation between us and our Source is within the imagined constructs of the mind.
Perhaps the very thing that separates us from God is our belief that we are separate.
If we look deep enough into the center of our Being we may find that we were never abandoned; and that our ideas of "relationship" and "drawing closer", only reinforce a false-sense of being apart.
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