by usualusername1 2 Replies latest jw friends
Today I made a post on LinkedIn about having suicidal thoughts since the age of 8. Had lots of supportive comments. One lady said her son was suicidal from the age of 4. I was freaked out.
Then she sent me the message below.
I hope she was counting her time!
I grant that MANY people in the world come from shittier backgrounds than I did, but my origin story is shitty enough. I'm not trying to score pity points. A child has no idea about whether his circumstanes are good or bad, they simply ARE what they ARE. It is only later as he is able to understand the variety if circumstances that he can figure out where on the SHIT bell curve he sits.
I can remember wishing for non-existence when I was 7 or 8 years old. I'm 75 now. I've experimented several times throughout the years. I support the Hemlock Society. I'm not at all surprised to hear of others with similar experiences.
Someday not too far from now my yearning for non-existence will be granted, but right now I have obligations more important than myself. When they are fulfilled I will vaporize like Melchizedek, and as I slip away I will smile and think "At last it is over."
(Hebrews 7:3, states "Melchizedek had no father or mother, and there is no record of his ancestors. He was never born and never died.)
Interesting translation regarding Hebrews 7:1 could simply imply that Melchizedek's origins were a complete mystery to his peers.
"There is no record of his father or mother or any of his ancestors - no (record regarding) beginning or end to his life. He remains a priest forever, resembling the Son of God." (NLT)
Even the cult's literature doesn't touch on the topic.
