Frenchy – greetings from the land down under!
I hope you don’t mind me starting a new post on this but I don’t have time to go back and find where we left off.
I know this response has taken me twelve days or so but I wanted to “live” with our discussion for a while.
I admit I know nothing of your situation, maybe that’s better in a way. Though from what you’ve briefly mentioned there are obviously family & friends entering the stay/leave the WTS equation for you.
In regard to the “head vs heart” matter we’ve been kicking around, I’m not saying that this may not amount to a “best of two evils” type decision though personally I have grave doubts as to whether it’s a “better the devil you know” type one.
Reading between the lines of your post I sense a great deal of disappointment and melancholy. Please correct me if I read wrong.
I want you to know that I’ve spent many years at the bottom of the trough with my old friends’ disappointment, depression, disillusion, despair, heartbreak & loneliness. I have suffered acutely the “dark beauty” of their vision.
I believe these “nothing to hang onto” type emotions are just as valid as any other. They seem to bring together a deeper sense of ones life. A moving through something. At least that’s been my experience.
I respect your,as you say, “sense of duty” & trust that God is with you.
Sincerely:SolidSender