Well, I just saw the movie yesterday and I'll tell ya something. Considering the reviews about how moving this movie had been for so many people, I secretly was hoping that seeing this movie might help me with my current state of disbelief and apathy about the person of Jesus. But sadly it had only the opposite effect. When Jesus had the flashbacks in the movie of telling his disciples about how no one comes to the Father except through him, I thought this guy must have had balls the size of grapefruits to say such things.
As a JW I had the compassion sucked outta me like every other JW I guess. That Jesus died on a cross for the sins of mankind never made me feel anything. I always thought like, well, that was his job to come here and save the world. He was doing what he was supposed to do. As a born again Christian I never gained any more empathy for Jesus? death than as a JW. I mean I really tried and all that, cuz my Christina friends would just seem to sigh when people would talk about the crucifixion. Almost pavlovian like. I felt kinda jealous about that. How come I couldn?t get all goose bumpy about it too?
I just don?t anymore what I believe when it comes to the Bible and Jesus and all that stuff. I was raised to believe I had the truth about what I believed in, as a JW. Then when I found out that was all lies, I moved on to the Christian experience. Now I?m beginning wonder if that whole thing isn?t just more of the same, just a variation on a theme. Jesus is so ingrained into us that I really wonder just how much decision process goes on in most people whether to believe in him or not.
Well, I can?t deny that this one person has had more of a profound effect on the world and the history of mankind (and not all of it good either) than any other. But that isn?t necessarily proof of divinity. And that his legacy has lasted for two thousand years doesn?t necessarily prove anything either. Longevity doesn?t prove truth.
I know God exists and I know He loves me. That, He has proven to me over and over again. So, do I need Jesus to get to Him? Really? It seems illogical to me for that to be true.
The movie, "The Passion of the Christ", has left me un-impassioned.
Steve