Run far, far away....

Country Girl

Usually, when the human being is in danger, we have a rush of adrenalin: the flight or fight response. Our hands are clammy, our heart races, we may become dizzy, and feel a sense of impending doom. I found that if I walk into a Kingdom Hall since I was out (20 years ago) I get those same feelings. Those, or I feel nauseous and want to cry. I noticed several other people on the board have written of these experiences. I guess it's the body saying "Run! Run Far Away!" How many others feel these same feelings?

CG

Jim_TX

CG,

I think that I used to feel this way... then I realized that these buildings are like many others - and have since that realization - lost their... control - over me.

I no longer feel anxious - or whatever - when I go near one.

Whenever I was married - my ex-wife and I were visiting friends of hers - who were JWs. They were VERY proud of their KH, and took us to tour it. They haven't changed in the 20+ years. Always the same - no matter where you go.

I also no longer feel the need - nor have the desire - to know 'where is the nearest KH'. I could care less.

CG - I hope that you get over this 'feeling' soon. Once you do, it will be another step - away - from their control that it seems they still have over you.

Regards,

Jim TX

Sassy

Actually now it does. It didn't always in the past but just even thinking about it now freaks me out.. I really don't think I could handle going into a hall again.

gespro

I get a quick angry flash whenever I see a Hall. I used to see one and get very quiet because I thought it a sacred place.

I would love to go to the one near my house where I last spoke to the elders here and let the head honcho know that I'll give him an old fashioned schoolyard ass whoopin if I see him near my house for talking to me in a subhuman way. I'm sick of their shaming, demeaning nature. I get so mad...somebody, hold me back!

LOL g

Cicatrix

The last Memorial I attended, I had a full blown panic attack.I realized then that I had to leave for good.

boa

Although I don't intend to purposely go into a kingdum hell ever again, (maybe for a funeral or wedding, we'll see) I am not afraid to. There isn't a person there who has any power over me and I likely know more about their own religion than virtually any of them do - I hold all the cards now (trying not to sound arrogant). I feel bad for the sad situation they are in but no matter what, whether in a cultlike org or not, we must all take responsibility for our actions including the point at which we suppress our common sense and true feelings in our heart and bury the proverbial head a little deeper into jdubbie land imo.

boa....who hates running never mind 'away'...give me a dirt bike, snowmobile, 4X4, or sea-doo anyday.