Since leaving the borg just over two years ago, as a young man in his early-mid twenties, I realise now for the first time in my life I'm not worried about the future...
While in the organisation I constantly worried about my life, it's direction, and the coming apocalypse (and how I would fare). Would I have enough time to get the things done I wanted to do? Would I make it? What would I do if it doesnt happen soon?
These and mnay other questions plagued me, kept me on a constant state of tension. Now however, I feel much more relaxed in my life. I have no plan set out for the future - and instead of scaring me as it used to, I actually feel good about it. The future is open... and it feels great!
Anyone else have a similar weight lifted from their shoulders too?
The Future
by the bandersnatch esq. 6 Replies latest jw experiences
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the bandersnatch esq.
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DanTheMan
Welcome to the board bandersnatch!
I spend a lot of time worrying about the future, unfortunately. But I'm glad you don't!
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Dawn
Welcome bandersnatch!
I enjoyed your post. I don't worry about the future anymore either - instead, I plan for it. I plan on growing old in this "old system of things" - plan on seeing my children marry, having grandchildren, having great-grand children, retiring with my hubby and spending more time traveling and enjoying sunrise and sunsets - perhaps I will still be here when the first man walks on Mars, when a cure is found to cancer and AIDS.
I don't fear the future any more - I look forward to it. I think there are a lot of wonderful things waiting for us there.
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the bandersnatch esq.
Dawn, you hit the nail right on the head! All those things and more now seem open... life does not seem any longer to be a short fearful stay in "this system of things" but full of opportunity, whether you make plans for it or not.
This only struck me recently, when I was pondering why I hadn't felt down for a while. There's still lots of reasons to feel down, but they don't seem as important any more. I hope others have felt the way I now do. -
Big Tex
Howdy bandersnatch!!
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JamesThomas
Welcome banders.
For many Witnesses, for many people, the problem is not so much the future, but rather lack of presence now -- in the only reality that ever is.
Little wonder life often seems difficult.
j
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Gadget
Hi Bandersnatch, welcome to the board.