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VeniceIT

HAHHAHAHA well I knew after a few of the other posts that would get your attention hahhahahha!!!!!Ok I know you guys are gonna think I need to stop watching movies hahha!!! Tonight I watched ‘Cast Away’. I had seen it when it first came out at the theater. At that time when I first saw it (if you haven’t seen it, but are planning too STOP READING NOW!), I really felt for and identified with him. He’d survived the greatest trails of his life, to come back and lose his girl, and just ‘not belong’.

You see when I first saw this movie we had just moved to FL. I had been df’d in Oct, but hadn’t seen anyone that I knew hardly since June. I had hid out with my parents in our motor home for 5 months. I lost ALL contact with EVERYTHING I had ever known, cared about or believed in! I’d lived in OR nearly all of my life. When this happened. He stayed in the motor home, and then in Oct-Nov, we sold the house, and packed everything up into storage, shipping or goodwill. I sorted through and sold Almost everything I’d had. I kept my car, a few paintings and some clothes (which were really cute going into the box, but somehow got freaky in the move.) I remember driving around town, like I was ghost, I didn’t belong anymore, I didn’t belong anywhere!!! I was SOO LOST and SOO Lonely!!!

Then we packed up everything and drove across the country. It was a beautiful drive and I had the whole world in front of me. But where to go, what to do??? We got into FL the first week in Dec. We spent the first month or so fixing up the condo, and we had great neighbors. I didn’t know a SOUL when we moved here., but I knew that I was gonna be ok. And then I went and saw ‘Cast Away’ and totally identified with him at the end, when he came back and he was LOST, out of place. He had to totally start over, find himself, and what he wanted, and make a new life!!!! That was me! I was so devastated by that realization at the time, I kept hoping that it was all a dream, that my sister and everyone would see the light, that it was temporary and it’d all be ok. But at that moment I knew that I had to MOVE ON!!!! Even if others see this and leave, I have to make my own way first, I have to find my place in this wonderful thing we call the world.

Watching the movie again, I realize how far I have come from those desperate months of my life. When I thought my heart would just shatter and my soul would burst!!! Here I am though a year after it all started and I’m amazed where I am. I’m on my way!!!! I’ve made my mark, and I’m moving forward. I’ve got a great job and I work for our neighbors upstairs who are some of our closets friends. I have HEAPS of friends that I have made online, and they really mean a lot to me, I hope to someday meet everyone (well most at least haha) from this board and yahoo!!! Like Ros said EXJW’s are my favorite people!!!

I just thought I’d post to say thanks for helping along the way, being there to share the tears and the laughs. I don’t know what I would have done without you all!!!

And yes I’m going to see Mulan and Princess in Aug so there will be great posting wars come September HAHAHAHHAHAH!!!!!

I also look forward to possible getting to see Free peace, think, safe, Loves (again), Wasa, seven006 BWAHAHHA!!! Alan and Julie, Riz, Nate, and then of course the rest of the gang in WA!!!!!!

Luv ya,

Venice

Farkel

Don't leave your boobs at home. Be sure and bring them with you. Otherwise, I probably won't show up, and if I do, I won't play the piano for you until you go home and fetch them!

Farkel, who laughs that Brooklyn Bethel is actually reading stuff from me like this! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

seven006

Ven, as long as you have a couple of volley balls you will never be lonely. Tom only had one and they were bosom buddies. I can see why that movie meant so much to you how it relates.

Take care and big hug,

Dave

tergiversator

Hey Venice,

I can empathize with what you say about feeling so lost in those months immediately after leaving. I went to college in September '99 and left the organization in November, and it was tough. There was all of the agony that comes with learning the real truth, then dealing with a sudden collapse of normal relations with my mom and friends, as well as the normal stresses of moving away, getting used to school, living on my own for the first time, making new friends, etc. But hey, like you realized, I had to move on... and I'll take an uncertain, unknown future on my own over the Watchtower's non-future any day.

-T.

Princess

Hi Venice! I enjoyed your post. I remember the really empty feeling of suddenly having no friends. When we were on our way out Steve and I went to a convention to see Mulan and dad in a drama! HA! We both felt like outsiders, it was the strangest feeling and I'll never forget it.

Looking forward to August when I will be very careful not to give you any stories to post.

Princess

"...and they lived happily ever after."

jst2laws

Hey,
I have not been online regular and seemed to have missed something. What is this about meeting in August. I wanna go too!!???

My wife and I now go to meetings and wonder what are we doing here? We would never go back accept for our family still attending. We feel like total strangers among people who used to be our friends. This, because I resigned as an elder and made a few revealing comments from the platform in my last talk to the congregation. Now we miss about half the meetings and we almost don’t exist to them when we do attend.

Venice, we are not far from you, and wish we could have been of some support to your family. We have not been cast away as your family was, but we are on the edge of the deck looking for an opportunity to jump ship without anyone noticing.

Anyway, did I miss something about a gathering in August?
Jst2laws

VeniceIT

Ya the party in August is up in WA, but hey if you want to hook up just email me!!!

Ven

Farkel

jst2laws,

If you go to WA, I will go to WA. I know who the people are and where it is. Besides, I need a reason to see my two youngest children in Vancouver, Wa!

Let me know, ok? I will play Mozart or Chopin for you and your wife.

Farkel

Prisca

Venice, why did you have to make such a radical move? Was the Mafia after you?

VeniceIT

Prisca, HHAHA no but it seemed like it!!! my parents had been planning on moving here the last few years anyway. I was planning on staying. But when this all happend last summer I had no where to live or work or anything I worked for dad. There was nothing to keep me there!! so we moved!

SOOOO Farkey poo you'll go to WA to see just21aws, but not to come see the rest of us SHEESSH!!!! I'm offended hahhahhha

Ven

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