I was home on Saturday morning, around 10:30 a.m. when I heard my doorbell ring. I checked my security monitor and could see two JW women at my door. I breathed in deeply.My husband works a graveyard shift and was sleeping.
Historically, the JW's in my neighborhood only knock or ring once. I know why too, cause like me, when I was going door to door, I really didn't want to talk to anyone. I wanted to leave quickly, count my time and not bother anyone.
I was counting on this and hoping they would not wake my sleeping partner, by ringing the doorbell again. My dogs were already restless cause someone was at the door and they could tell.
RING RING - UGH!!!!
I rushed to the door, opened it and wedged myself in the door way so the dogs would not slip out. Two women were there, the one that was holding the magazines was very nervous. Her voice quivered and as she spoke to me she showed me a page in the Watchtower and read a quote.
I told them I was not interested and that my husband sleeps during the day "so please mark me as a Do Not Call in the future". They were very polite and smiled and said no problem.
I closed the door and immediately felt so conflicted. I was angry when I went to the door. Angry cause they could wake my husband and because I know TTATT. But then I quickly was very sad. That was ME for the first 20 years of my life. Nervous, not really wanting to talk to anyone, not wanting to piss anyone off (by waking sleeping people in the house). Many are just victims like I was. Like my mom still is.
I would never want anyone to yell or be rude to my mom at the door.
I am sure almost everyone on this forum has experienced this at some point so I am sure this is not a huge revelation. Even when I leave the Witnesses so far behind me, they still find a way to bring up old feelings.
Fortunately when I husband woke that evening, he had not heard the doorbell at all and we had a good chat about the experience.