Midnight-Living with Depression

by Seven 2 Replies latest watchtower medical

  • Seven
    Seven

    I received this poem via email today. It was written by a a woman named V.Huckeby. The writer thought many of us feel this way when we are depressed.
    *
    Midnight
    *
    It's almost midnight once again
    As I sit here all alone.
    Sleep eludes me-hours pass
    I'm weary to the bone.
    *
    Depression has it's grip on me
    It holds me in it's spell.
    It weaves a web of purest silk
    I'm trapped inside it's cell.
    *
    I smile, nod and laugh a bit,
    I let no one inside
    This prison built around my heart,
    I feel the need to hide.
    *
    I'm fine, I'm doing great! I say
    When questioned how I feel.
    I fear that they would turn away
    In disgust at what is real.
    *
    A cold, the flu, or other things
    Make sense to most I know.
    But illness of the mental kind
    They'd rather you not show.
    *
    I'm embarrassed and ashamed
    Of this weakness I possess.
    For depression leaves me too afraid
    To trust, I must confess.
    *
    I'm afraid that you won't like me
    I'm afraid that you will leave.
    When you come to realize
    That I'm not who I claim to be.
    *
    I'm not strong with strength of mountains
    I'm not confident and sure.
    Deep inside I'm hurt and wounded
    Looking always for a cure.

  • RedhorseWoman
    RedhorseWoman

    How very true.

  • waiting
    waiting

    Ah, yes, but there is another side to the coin - and it's our choice to turn the damn thing over.

    I think that's the hardest choice to make - flip the coin to the other side. Take the chance on being ok, perhaps content, perhaps even happy.

    Depression is not a bottomless pit. Look at Red - could have not been here. But, she flipped the coin, and rides her horses in the open woods.

    But it takes a first step. And then setting life in motion again. Whatever it takes, friends, therapy, medications, the net - whatever.

    Nine out of ten doctors agree that one out of ten doctors is an idiot. Jay Leno

    Finding a good therapist usually takes 3 tries, according to statistics. Worth the search.

    I was in analysis. I was suicidal. I would have killed myself but my analyst was a strict Freudian and if you kill yourself they make you pay for the sessions you miss. Woody Allen

    And humor helps......

    waiting

    Edited by - waiting on 25 August 2000 3:59:16

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