Coming out from hiding

pc

Hi to everyone!

I post here on and off but always read everyones post to see what's happening. Lately I have had this really strong desire to just say screw it this is who I am and write it here. I told my husband who has never been a witness, but he is afraid that someone will try to DF me.I have faded for a really long time. Only my dad, one brother and sister-in-law remain as JW's. I am just tired of the Watchtowers crap and feel like saying screw you I am not afraid of you.

Does anyone remember that movie Network, and they all just screamed out "I am mad as hell and I am not going to take it anymore". That's how I feel.

Am I crazy??? pc

Dustin

No, you aren't crazy. I've been faded away for two years now, but every day I just want to tell them to F... Off and rot in hell. If it wasn't for the fact that my parents still go I probably would. I just don't feel like dealing with the problems my getting df'd would cause between us. I wish they would accept me for who I am, but I doubt things would be the same after getting DF'd. My ultimate dream is to walk in during a meeting and walk up on stage and say "I just want you all to know I quit, and I hate this religion". Then I could walk away happy. I definitely feel your sentiments on the subject.

Dustin

jst2laws

You are normal girl.

Any normal person in an extremely unnormal invironment will be frustrated.

As to "Coming out", my wife and I tried to fade but couldn't stand it. We went to the newspaper and Local Tv station and made it easy on the boys to DF us. It wasn't until we were officially out that we felt FREE and couldn't waite to move on.

Jst2laws

lilybird

My husband and I struggled with leaving, which meant leaving our friends and his family. But once we actually made the break; We told the elders we wanted out, and they officially announced it at the meeting. It was very freeing for us and we were able to move on. It was easier for us though I think, because my sisters and father were not JWS and were happy for us and my husband's parents, while they were strong JW believers, did NOT believe in shunning and would not turn their backs on us, even after they were counseled several times by the elders to shun us. In fact my husband's father was eventually made an elder. and still didn't believe in shunning us. I guess that made it easier for us as we didn't lose family. Everyone's situation is different and you must do what feels best for you. I know the feeling of wanting them to know they have no hold on you any longer and you are free to think and live as you want. The only sad part is to have to lose family. Hopefully you can find your way that will work for you.

HadEnuf

If you're crazy than most everyone else here is too! Is it crazy to want to be free from enslavement by an organization that doesn't give a hoot (I'd like to use a stronger word but 'tis forbidden) about you? I think everyone's way of dealing with leaving is done in the manner best for them. Some people DA themselves. I think that gives them some sort of "closure". Other people don't do that because they feel it gives the org. too much power over them. From what I have heard on this forum, it seems like many people are doing the "fadeaway". This method of leaving is the easiest if you aren't always worried that BIG BROTHER is just waiting for you to make a false move. We personally opted for the "fadeaway" and don't give a rip if the good old boys club finds out that we are doing things not approved by their tiny little minds. If they DF us we don't care. They can't harm us anymore than they already have. I'm already shunned by my family so what else can they do? You can read all the experiences on this forum...but in the end you have to do what you feel is right for YOU.

I wish you all the best...Cathy L.

Brummie

I am mad as hell and I am not going to take it anymore". That's how I feel.
Am I crazy??? pc

Crazy?? NO way!! Thats just the real you shouting out from inside! Its just the process we have to go through, one day you will stand up and say it, and then a big weight will be lifted of your shoulder! Go sing from the hills

Brummie

Honesty

Lately I have had this really strong desire to just say screw it this is who I am and write it here.

Do whatever gives you inner peace. For me, it was calling Bethel, Crooklyn, NY and telling them they are all liars, false prophets and steal people away from worshipping Jesus (Hebrews 1:1-6 NWT 1961 edition if you can find one the WTBTS has not destroyed). Such a feeling it was but not near as good as receiving the promised Holy Spirit when I turned to Jesus after I stopped worshipping those false prophets of the WTBTS Governing Body.

jazbug

FREEDOM. FREEDOM.FREEDOM. I've been out for 2 yrs after 32 years of slavery.The two things I noticed the most was the freedom from guilt and from fear. When you know the truth (about JW's), the truth does set you free. Life is too short to waste it doing what an organization tells you to do, too short to never feel like you are living up to their standards, and too short to be a slave.

Good luck! There is life after JW's.

jazbug

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