Crisis of Conscience changed everything! Jehovah seems more understanding now. lol I think the JW's give a very demanding, falese representation of Jehovah. He's not like that at all! He is a loving God and that's his most important quality: LOVE! Even the JW's say that. I feel so different! wow! lol I feel like a person or something lol (...or something lol) I should read books more often. Particularly non-fiction. I have trouble reading books that are fiction... It's easier to read something with more "mechanical words." But I feel cynical not only about JW's but about all organzied religion, it's all just rot to me. I must emphasise that. 
I just like the Bible only. I saw some Mormons near Museum station in Sydney (If you know the place you know how "metro" it is) and I thought to myself "what a waste of time." They work 6 months and preach 6 months. God doesn't expect you to do all that! He wants you to worship him, but have a balanced life. There's no balance in religion like these 2... Anyway, it's been about a month or 2 since reading that book... and this is how I feel now. So, I just thougt I would try to encourage everyone on here, if they had doubts about the organization, or if they still love God but don't want to feel guilty? What do you feel like after you read books from people who have experienc? YOU FEEL GREAT! And it happens AFTER YOU READ A BOOK LIKE THIS. I am sure there are other great help books like this that try to set someone free, religiously speaking. My life is still hard, I am poor, but boy, I don't want to be poor & religious guilt. Too burdensome! That's just pure rot. So now my life is just hard only. 
I still feel free! :)
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candidlynuts
i dont feel great.. i feel like my life was taken away from me. (spending it all as a jw i mean)
i feel free'er.. but since all my family are still jw's i dont feel totally "free"
reading crisis of conscience showed me that " apostate" literature isnt all written by bitter ex members. it was a heart wrenching book by what seems to me by a spiritually minded man w ho just wanted to extend himself and his story to others so they'd not feel so isolated .
i understand your point.. i'm just at a different level of healing than you are i guess.
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talesin
My life is still hard, I am poor, but boy, I don't want to be poor & religious guilt. Too burdensome! That's just pure rot. So now my life is just hard only.
Well said!
candidly
It`s hard, huh? Me, too.
Do you know how I have come to feel? I would rather have the pain losing my family, than the guilt of Jehovah. I hope you get there soon. *hugs*
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Stephanus
I saw some Mormons near Museum station in Sydney (If you know the place you know how "metro" it is) and I thought to myself "what a waste of time."
Have you ever run into the Dubs at Town Hall Station? I've never seen anyone talking to them for years, and I've given up trying to get literature off them because they're so rude!
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GetBusyLiving
I'm happy for you inquirer. If you liked CoC you should check out In Seach of Christian Freedom by Franz as well.. its a terrific book.
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@Stephanus
Yeah, they are rude... It's so sad, why can't they just be nice for better or worse. I saw one lady at Central station... I had no desire to approach her but they have that demanding "I-belong-to-a-cult" look.
@talesin
I would love to leave Australia, got any good ideas for employment elsewhere? I fear what's going to happen with me in the future. I tried to ask the JW's for help last year. I had this idea of becoming a Bethel person and all that sort of thing. But this bastard gave me the run around and said Jehovah will sort everything out.
I know I sound stupid now, but I live at home with my mum. And I would love to leave home, but I don't know how to do it. Life sucks for me. So that's why I posted my resume on here. I need someone to give me a chance.
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Black Sheep
Oz is a big country. You don't have to leave it to get away from JW family influences.
When I was about your age I bought a newspaper, found a job at the other end of the state, put my suitcase out the window, had breakfast, said goodbye and disappeared (I'm not suggesting you should do that).
North Qld is my favourite spot on the planet and, if you can take the heat, is well worth spending some time there.
You would find it easy to get a job in NZ, but, financially, you would be better off in Oz. It is still worth doing a working holiday here though.
There may be some problems getting a work permit in the US, but I am sure there are ways around them.
Chris
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I've got relatives in America. I've got more icentive go to over there.
I think Australia is pretty limited in resources. Only 5 cities. Should be 50. Most of Australia is a wast, just sand. But it's all tied in the history and it was alright back then and they thought so as well.
Black Sheep, you just left after you found a job? How long ago was that? How old were you?
How do you get a working visa in the US?