I was this close to paying .99 cents for the new Dave Matthews song "American Baby" but i found an uncorrupted version on Limewire, Thank God, phew that was a close one...... I can't help but wonder how my life would be different if i wasn't involved with the jw's, I'm an all or nothing kinda guy, this sort of in sort of out state i'm in is really frustrating me. I've been thinking lately about life bjwce (before jehovahs witness common era) There was this feeling of endless possibilites like anything could happen, sorta of like when you're a kid and you can be anything you want like president (but we all know you're last name has to be bush to be president, Go JEB!!! 2008!) call it what you will that's just how i felt. Not long after I became involved with the jw's that optimism sort of vanished. This overwhelming feeling of "That's It?" "this is what i'm going to be doing for the rest of my life?" "5 meetings a week, week after week?" came over me, there's something to be said for the unknown. Whenever i'm giving talks i see it in the peoples eyes this overwhelming sense of boredom, or could i be a shitty speaker? Variety is the spice of life and if you're a jw it's the same old boring thing week after week. Well if i've bored you with this pointless thread blame Dave Matthews and his damn introspective rock music, making me think about life, where the hell does he get off???
JV