i have arrived home after a reflective holiday, waaaaaaaaay to much .
time to think........ anyway the following is what i was listening to down there and .
pretty much sums up how i have been feeling about the truth,.
You sound really down? It's a confusing time and can make you feel guilt that you don't have to feel.
There's nothing wrong with wanting to discuss dought. You just have to be careful who in the KH you talk to!! If someone is mature and down to earth they shouldn't feel threatened or the need to go to the elders.
Hope things get better for you!
if you were to tell a witness that they were "brainwashed" or that they were "under mind control", they certainly would not rationally accept it.the reason is because witnesses cannot distinguish between mind control and "obeying the faithful and discreet slave".
it is only after a person stops exposing himself to the subtle mind controlling tactics of the watchtower that a person can see how thoroughly duped they are in their beliefs.
how might you be able to tell that you are no longer your own person, able to make your own decisions in your life?
For 9 years I've heard how soandso didn't think I was the type to make it. Well - they could've saved me so much grief! I was in it for Jah, never for the people. I come, I go, I conquered the borg! I stay away because I no longer get spiritually upbuilt from even the platform - not because of the other life brother elder leads - but becuase it has become so hypocritical that I can't stomach it anymore. I've gone through hidding my true thoughts.
People are in this org because it's the only place that garentees you friends if you follow the rules/fools.
I had plenty of friends before - real friends. I've only had 1 "real" friend since.
When do you return to normal??? I'm sick of the thinking twice BS
last night we had a hell of a storm here.
there was thunder, lightning, pouring rain and wind.
personally i love stormy nights, cuddled up to hubby in a warm bed.
I got my own territory and picked the people and times I wanted - occationally I braved it with the prissy pioneers on Wednesdays! Mostly I went out cause my kid wanted to go. I liked teaching real bible truth from the real bible - not "see how much time you can get in" or "how many mag you can place" After a while I was too embarrased for people to come to the KH. Eventually I gave up! My heads a little thick I know!@!
here's the site:.
http://www.colorquiz.com/.
here are my results...hoooly schmoly, i can't believe how dead on they are, and all you have to do is pick some colors, too!!.
OK - seeking new JW camp?!
I took this test 3 different times with 3 different results - all of which covered any multiple personallities!!
oh yeah - I'm spiritually schizo???
i was just thinking, when i was a young teenager, i started an attempt to become fashion conscious.
i started noticing what people were wearing, even at the kh.
ok, especially at the kh!!!!.
I looked up scriptures too - it became a game to see how many references I could look up before the next scripture was called!
i have a 'loyal' witness relative suffering various watchtower-related trials, who, i believe, represents an emerging.
new form of jehovah's witness.
she seems to have a sort of 'spiritual schizophrenia'.
There's the name I was looking for for my condition !!!!!!!! Spiritually Schizophrenic!!
Occationally I refer to much the same conditioned garb only to find I am using "sarcasm"
I was told by brother elder 8 years ago - "one day, this org won't look like the truth." well - I think that major change happened about 2 years ago - when the anointed gave up thier rights. talk about the bride running out of oil!!
You were right about kids being worse in the "truth". I've always enchoraged my kid to be well balanced with friends. He has more in the world. Actually he has non in the "truth" cause no one will let their kids be associated with my kid!!!! good thing, he says they are more violent and do more stuff secretly than anyone he's ever know in the world.
i'm new to this, i've spent the past 2 years trying to pull my head out of the bs.
i've refused to live a double life - i have nothing to hide - apparently others think otherwise!
so i'm ignored - no problem, makes the bs easier to ignore.
I'm new to this, I've spent the past 2 years trying to pull my head out of the BS. I've refused to live a double life - I have nothing to hide - apparently others think otherwise! So I'm ignored - no problem, makes the BS easier to ignore. My kid needs sports to learn team spirit and how to participate in a group for the group - irrony is, isn't that what we should be doing anyway. In 10 years I've never done things the cookie cutter way. I'm not a rebel. What's up with these stepford wives!
