Once I figured out it was lies and harmful to my mental health my conscience would not allow me to continue to attend just to pretend. I figured continuing to attend would be helping support the numbers and I didn't want to give one more thing to this cult.
But, even when I was PIMI I reckoned at least half of the congregation didn't know or care if it was actually true they just liked the social aspects. Not exactly proof just a hunch I had.