I can't remember which one was the "first" but
JW facts - it was a simple easy to navigate website with credible information.
WTdocuments (Barb Anderson) - the personal experiences were invaluable for me to see I wasn't crazy or alone. Randy Watters bethel experience was very illuminating.
John Cedars/JW survey - interesting reading and, again, proof for me the questions I was asking and the conclusions I was drawing were reasonable not "mentally diseases."
JWstruggle YT - Eric is such a sweetheart.
What drove me to search apostate stuff was simple - desperation!
I was so lost, so confused, so alone with it all and out on a limb I literally had no one else or nowhere else to turn but to apostates for answers!