The most difficult thing I think is to suddenly realize that you need a "bible study" from the beggining!!!!It is a big shock to see that Jw dogma's which we considered once core beliefs are simply man-made efforts to understand things, based on absolutely nothing...I was almost born in the "truth" and having a traditionally faithful family in the system I was a MS at the age of 18....so as anybody can understand not only did I not do normal things for that age (date,parties,etc) but I also felt pressure giving the good example to the rest of the youth's...Imagine how you can feel when they use your example from the stage of a convention.....The time when I started to wake up gradually was when I went to prison beeing a consience objector.....There beeing with young brothers all day I realized that we as an organization were not what we always boasted that we are....I would love to give examples from my every day experiences those 6 months but its not worth it at least for now.Returning to everyday life at the age of 20 and having so many new experiences in my mind I started seeing more and more how far we were from what is written in the bible.The peak was when the elders told me that I could no longer be a MS because of my bad attendance of the meetings and not good service (no mention about quality but quantity)...When I asked them to show me from the Bible why I wasn't qualified anymore to be a MS they could not answer and they were forced to arrange a new appointment.At the new appointment they explained the reason!!!I went vacation with 3 sisters and 2 brothers to an island and we were by ourselves!!!(by the way we had the time of our lives)....To make a long story short I was a scandal in the cong because of going vacation to an island but x elder was qualified although he owned a pastry shop and would sell birthday cakes,or christmas sweets and etc...The final hit came one night when I decided to see the other side...the side that we should never see....the side full of "lies"....I could never imagine how many things I could learn in 1 night!587vs607,1914,1925,1975,generation,pyramids.....and the list goes on......Imagine how it feels going to prison for your beliefs and learning that your "fathers" decide to become affiliated with the UN so they can use the library.....or the Malawi vs Mexico situation.....or the declaration of facts in 1934......All this + some family situations almost made me burn out emotionally but slowly slowly I found my way......To come again to our topic using my personal expriences I just wanted to point out that although it is absolutely normal to want to rebel after seeing the dark side of the moon in the long term it damages more.....Also living a decent life afterwards will help all those that are still in to understand that there is happiness outside of the glass cage too............
tsomski
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Can "Born-Into-Its" Ever Be Happy?
by Englishman injust wondering....take a 40 year old male ('cos he's an ex-elder!
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he becomes disenchanted with dubdom and eventually decides to leave.
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Some People Enjoy Being Jehovah's Witnesses For Various Reasons
by minimus insome individuals truly enjoy being jehovah's witnesses.
i think about those that would have liked to be in acting.
well, having a part in a demonstration in the service meeting or giving a talk in the theocratic ministry school gives one the opportunity to act, be melodramatic, show a little comedic talent,etc.
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tsomski
There are many categories of JW's finding enjoyment through the whole system:
1) "The stage lovers".
2) "The power seekers"
3) The sister "I-would-be-an-elder-if-I-was-a-man"
4) "Brother barbeque-picnic"
5) Brother I-bought-my-new-car-and-want-to-show-it-off
This is only a small sample that comes to my mind.I can come with a lot more.The conclusion is that there are people that find a meaning even though the foundations are built in sand..........
But all this should not suprise us.The JW society is just another organization with people.Doesn't the same thing happen in all other groups?
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Can "Born-Into-Its" Ever Be Happy?
by Englishman injust wondering....take a 40 year old male ('cos he's an ex-elder!
) who's been born a dub.
he becomes disenchanted with dubdom and eventually decides to leave.
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tsomski
When we finally climb the wall and get to see the real side of our small world (WTS), either if we leave or decide to stay, things can get really really dangerous....I feel that I climbed that wall in a relatively young age (24) about a year ago...Having my personal reactions fresh in mind from that time I would be very interested to see this topic for discussion "how did you feel when you finally realized the "truth" about the truth".I am sure all of us have kept those emotions very well in our mind.As for the question of this thread I think the key to find happiness is not trying to "catch up" from all those lost years but to set goals as GaryB wrote.Also it is important to be very patient.Seeing the world as it really is we suddenly realize that for everything there are many scenarios....I personally was trapped in wanting to answer all my questions ASAP!The good thing is that getting away from the WTS time consuming system I was able to search some answers in my freetime and see that the key to understanding things is to let time guide you and show you the answers.
ps1. This is my first post and I think now is the chance to say a big thanks to all the people in here, who spend their precious time wanting to share their thoughts,experiences with everyone who desires to read them.
ps2 please forgive my poor English everyone but I am in the US only for 2 years!
Tsomski