(((Dansk))) So glad to hear you are "home".
I am sure Mrs. Dansk is equally delighted.
Hugs to you both,
Codeblue
it's been a long time since i posted here but i often read your messages when ian (dansk) logs on.
as most of you will know, ian will be going back into hospital on monday for an allogeneic stem cell transplant and will be away from the forum for a good few weeks (hopefully he'll be back home within 4-6 weeks).
last time he was in hospital many of you sent messages to his ward and i know they cheered him up immensely.
(((Dansk))) So glad to hear you are "home".
I am sure Mrs. Dansk is equally delighted.
Hugs to you both,
Codeblue
sorry need to share and to talk about it and maybe in giving me your opinion, talking about your experience, i'll find other ways to deal with it.. .
i just turned 40 (does this have something to do with it) never been scared about the matter ... but now i wonder what kind of love i've really experienced before (any kind of appeals like complicity for instance, the need to share something in particular with someone, the need to give someone some love?
) i dunno for real .... i'm trying to get this out of my head but i can't, i can't, i can't - i'm trying to get interested in other guys but it's just not the same ... and i even wonder how i came to the conclusion that i do love him !!!.
(((RAF)))
What a thread!!!
When I speak to you, you should know I am a "hopeless romantic". I take the challenges and fear and put it aside for the prospect of having and giving love to a person.
IF this person makes you feel like you never had, I would say it is worth the "love risk". You don't want to "quit him" (sorry bad term from a movie...lol) and then years go by and "wonder if"? Do you?
It is quite a scary thing to reveal our true selves to another person. It makes us quite vulnerable and transparent. You have to decide if this is "worth it". ONLY you can decide.
You are a beautfiul, intelligent young woman that may be "scared" because of whatever has happened to you in your past. Breaking free from those emotional fears and getting "real" with yourself and your wants can be a way to fly with your own wings. Trust is a huge issue, whether it be with your own "gut feelings" or just living life open enough to "trust the wonderful guy" you are speaking about. (He does sound wonderful based on what you have written)
Nothing ventured, nothing gained.
I wish you all the best, and I wish I could be there in person to chat with you. Please keep me posted, and remember I am always available on MSN chat...ok???
love ya,
Codeblue
it has been a long time since i have posted.
i have, thankfully, completed my treatment course, as most of you know.
i will continue to take medication for at least 4 more years and the prognosis is excellent.
(((SimpleSally))) It is GREAT to hear from you!
I am so happy life is getting better for you and you are feeling better.
Codeblue
Welcome Rebelwife
barbara anderson has just released a new book on cd that contains some 5000 pages of public court records from the nine lawsuits involving 16 victims that the wts settled secretly in may of this year, plus documents from two other cases the society settled in 2000 and 2006.. .
its called secrets of pedophilia in an american religion: jehovahs witnesses in crisis.. .
the book, and more info from barbara about it, is available here:.
Seeker, thanks for sharing the link and info.
hey lisa,.
even though your wedding annirversary isn't until tomorrow, i wanted to be the first to wish you and oz a .
happy 14th wedding anniversary!!!.
Happy Anniversary LIsa and Oz!!!
i used to read the old h2o site and i believe they brought up that this place was up......either that or i typed in jws on search.
Scully and my husband reconnected after several years. Emails were sent and JW stories of what happened after he moved.
They had too much sad JW stuff in common: ex: lack of love from congregations. She promptly recommended this site, because you could find others that felt the same way without being critisized.
Codeblue
thinking out loud.... .
justice.. topics that need discussing.
justice is getting what you deserve.
hmmmmmmmm.. not too long after I started fading, June 2003, I visited my youngest son and went the KH with him.
The Sunday talk was about surviving Armageddon. Well, he proceeded to say......you will live a thousand years and then be tested again?
I totally balked at this idea.
What PARENT would test their kid twice? Especially after maintaining servitude and being a good person and getting into the NEW SYSTEM (TM)..........WHY do I need constant testing ????? Why after a 1,000 years would I need to be tested again?
IT just didn't add up for me. IT made no sense to me at all.
Codeblue
I forgot to add: I like that elder that showed you how life should be lived!!! Too bad he never left the JW's...but maybe he had to stick it out otherwise he knew he would be shunned.
That was an "awesome story"......
I totally enjoyed reading about your life.
Funny thing, I learned a while back to separate Jehovah from an org.... Maybe that's why everytime I had to move and I moved a lot with JW husband #1, I took pity on the supposed spiritually weak...
Thanks for posting your history!
Codeblue