I am struggling with that at the moment. I have very fond memories of church as a child. I attended methodist primarily but a few others who were all independent churches who were involved in various humanitarian efforts and charity. I loved going on missions trips to help build schools and having holiday dinners where all the kids cooked a meal, adults came a paid for the meal as if at a restaurant and we used proceeds to feed the homeless. We had fun and helped others. It was a great experience.
However, my experience with the Jws caused me to research more and the more I researched the more I realized the bible is not only full of holes that I did not see as a youth, but also taking natural events and turning them into acts of god. As an educated adult I just can't believe these things. I consider myself agnostic now. There could be intelligent design, but I don't see how a loving God would continue to punish billions over time due to Adam and Eve's mistake.