Hello there no i did not "run away" i was dealing with a very sick family member and have not had time to check in... I have read all of your responses and appreciate them dearly! If you felt i was being argumentative i do apologize that was not what i was going for... I was mearly asking questions the same as i have done with my friends i am studying with... I was by no means trying to turn you against each other. and I apologize if you felt thats what i was doing.
Honestly when i "stumbled" across this site i thought it was a "support group" for witnesses i did not realize that it was an ex-JW site... so yes you could say that i was quite "taken aback" and felt kind of threatned or intimitated by the responses... Although i do appreciate the concern i am by no means RUSHING to get baptized. At this time my husband and I are enjoying the bible studies and are getting alot from them.