I know the feeling. I was DFed in 08 and reinstated 18 months later. Being out for that time woke me up. When I went back I viewed things different. I then walked out and never went back.
I too was marked and have not been able to talk to my family.
No regrets. Very happy now yet I do miss my sons. But hey.....they are grown men and if the chose to follow the direction of the Borg .... thats that.