Why indeed.
I'm not looking to start a new life in JW land at all,
there are just a few people that I would like to speak to.
I, along with others am very hurt that "friends" could be so conditional. So logically, even if I could suddenly talk to those, I would never trust or view in the same way again.
Very simply, I was a child that had just been through multiple traumas (11 & 13) and diagnosed with severe mental health conditions following them, a year later I was allowed to make the decision to get baptised. Less than a year later I sinned. I fornicated which was a symptom of one of the mental health condintions (BPD). I was then disfellowshipped losing any support of any friends and family, 15 years old and with a baby.