What should I do? crazyhorse
Try this; GROW UP.
Move to another town. (you can go home and visit )
Get a job away from home, cut all financial ties. If these people knew you from childhood, you will always be a child in their eyes.
Get some friends who RESPECT you. Get your own $$$. Pay your own way.
Live in your own place with your own furniture you bought. Separate yourself as a completely indepeendent adult.
These nosey ignorant useless self righteous elders will find someone else to pick on and forget you even existed. Believe me, when you disappear, life goes on for them and they will barely remember your name, in about 6 months.
my Cong was mostly setup by my grandfather so the Cong is made up of many family members and they all know I'm a good boy.
When does the little boy existing under the shadow of his misguided Cult Member Grandfather, become a MAN ? Your family is in a CULT. A cult who will tell you to defer your life till the new system, and 30 years later you will wake up and find your life is gone. Your parents will be dead and these elders gone or too old to function.
Have you read Crisis of Conscience by Raymond Franz ? If not - do so immediately and do not discuss it with your family. You can download it or go to the library and find it, or buy a copy on Amazon. Raymonf Franz sat on the Governing Body.