The first leak in my dam was elders turning a blind eye to local criminal activity within my congregation.
I pressed the issue. With all of the elders and two COs.
They did nothing. I cornered an elder, my brother in law, and he told me, and I quote: "as a body of elders, we have decided to ignore this"...
We were alone in the car while in service when this conversation happened, waiting for the other two to return from their call.
It took everything I had to contain myself. I just wanted to be taken home at that very instant.
I buried it for just a little while. Quit the meetings for a few months.
I attended the meeting where the new Silver bible was released. I couldn't last the entire meeting. I stood in the back until it was over.
That was the last time I ever attended a meeting of JWs.
Only after then did I investigate TTATT.
I was already done, and what I would soon learn only sealed it for me.
There will never be any 'returning to jehovah'.
I've even gone so far as to accept, even if they are right, I want nothing to do with them.
---
Later I would discover the elders were never my friends and my brother in law would be my betrayer.
By this all will know that YOU are my disciples, if YOU have love among yourselves
john 13:35