Posts by FeelingFree

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Still feel weird about things....

by FeelingFree in

so i'm loving the fact that my little one gets to be a "normal" child and take part in everything at school.

however i still have that stupid niggling in the back of my head that she shouldn't be doing it and it's wrong etc.

at the moment she is rehearsing for the nativity play and keeps singing the songs at home (she is going to be an angel!

FeelingFree

Thanks so much everyone for your lovely and helpful replies. It's made me a bit teary! It's so great to have you guys to vent to and that you really understand what it's like.

Sometimes I think I'm getting on really well and then like today will have a real down day. All the crap just comes flooding back, I also have so much resentment inside. Little things mainly will trigger it like stupid jw instagram post or something (I have been proactive and come off it for that reason!)

Think I just need to keep busy and concentrate on the positives, the fact my children won't be indoctrinated and will enjoy all the these celebrations...... That's definitely something that's "happyfying" hahaha! Such a stupid made up word just like everything else jw related xxx

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Still feel weird about things....

by FeelingFree in

so i'm loving the fact that my little one gets to be a "normal" child and take part in everything at school.

however i still have that stupid niggling in the back of my head that she shouldn't be doing it and it's wrong etc.

at the moment she is rehearsing for the nativity play and keeps singing the songs at home (she is going to be an angel!

FeelingFree

Oh Blondie that's horrible! How can a mother be so mean? No wonder you love giving gifts now.

I agree and don't want to just give my family and friends presents at crimbo and birthdays. Especially as the birthday of my youngest is the 2nd Jan! She would have Christmas pressies and birthday pressies really close together then nothing for the rest of the year. Seems a bit cruel to me.

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Still feel weird about things....

by FeelingFree in

so i'm loving the fact that my little one gets to be a "normal" child and take part in everything at school.

however i still have that stupid niggling in the back of my head that she shouldn't be doing it and it's wrong etc.

at the moment she is rehearsing for the nativity play and keeps singing the songs at home (she is going to be an angel!

FeelingFree

Good points there Searcher. Thanks 😊

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Still feel weird about things....

by FeelingFree in

so i'm loving the fact that my little one gets to be a "normal" child and take part in everything at school.

however i still have that stupid niggling in the back of my head that she shouldn't be doing it and it's wrong etc.

at the moment she is rehearsing for the nativity play and keeps singing the songs at home (she is going to be an angel!

FeelingFree

Thanks everyone, I just have to push through these mental blocks that keep occurring. It's been 17 months so I guess I still have some healing to do.

It's crazy how it keeps it's grip on you even when your done with it. I just want to enjoy everything now we are able to! Definitely don't want my daughter to pick up on any weirdness and negativity that I might accidently project.

She will make a lovely angel haha any tips on costume making??!

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Still feel weird about things....

by FeelingFree in

so i'm loving the fact that my little one gets to be a "normal" child and take part in everything at school.

however i still have that stupid niggling in the back of my head that she shouldn't be doing it and it's wrong etc.

at the moment she is rehearsing for the nativity play and keeps singing the songs at home (she is going to be an angel!

FeelingFree

So I'm loving the fact that my little one gets to be a "normal" child and take part in everything at school. However I still have that stupid niggling in the back of my head that she shouldn't be doing it and it's wrong etc.

At the moment she is rehearsing for the nativity play and keeps singing the songs at home (she is going to be an angel!) I was really pleased to start off with but for some reason it made me feel weird and sick this morning. It's not because I still believe JW teachings or anything, in fact I hate all things JW!

What's strange is I was never a super dub either and always had issues so I really don't understand why this is. She keeps singing about baby Jesus and "don't you know we love you, please don't cry" so maybe I have a stupid fear of her becoming religious or something.

I don't know....... I just wish I could get it all out of my head, I obviously haven't moved on as much as I would like. Plus I still come on this site to read pretty much every single day. I would love to not care enough and to be totally free but I guess that never really happens when your not d/a, d/f'd and you have family still in. I'm too nervous to put any crimbo decorations up for fear of what will happen and I absolutely HATE feeling like this.

I know it's all the mind and in reality I can do whatever I like but these barriers are getting me down.

Stupid f#*#ing cult.

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How long till the hounders come back ?

by Clambake in

after having a baby ?

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we just had an elder drop by and invite my wife to the kh with a 21 day old baby.. i thought it was kind of classless.

FeelingFree

Congratulations on your new baby!

People can be so clueless and rude when it comes to families with newborns.....especially JWs.

Prime example is how my mother-in-law turned up on our doorstep with the C.Os wife. I had just got my baby to sleep and (she was a terrible sleeper due to allergies which we found out later) she knocks on the door as it was locked, she would normally let herself in. The dog went mental and woke the baby up, I looked rough as and needed sleep and a shower, also had c section so recovering still. Anyway I had absolutely no clue who the woman was with her as C.O recently changed. They ended up coming in for awhile and I still didn't figure out who she was until just before leaving! I was just polite and just hoped she didn't realise. Dunno why I even let them in especially as I didn't know who the hell she was....must of been too tired to think.

Also they all think they have a right to hold your baby and pass it around and are offended when you say no! I'm so pleased my second baby has never set foot in kh and hopefully never will.

I sympathise with you guys. It's tough being new parents let alone having jw crap to put up with. These people have no clue!

Enjoy your new little one and stuff everyone else. Xx

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3 words to describe.....

by punkofnice in

..your experience with the watchtower corporation:.

i'll start...... bully boy elders.

FeelingFree

Isolated at school

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What I Hate About Halloween....

by konceptual99 in

jw
friends

....is that it has totally wiped away the distinct celebration of november 5th and bonfire night.

fireworks and bonfires are still ubiquitous this time of year but it's just merged in with halloween which, whilst always being celebrated, was not as promoted and so overwhelming as it is now.. bring back the guy!.

FeelingFree

We are going to our second bonfire night fireworks show on Thurs. Can't wait! Last year it was our first time celebrating it, we had left in the August and felt naughty and excited doing something against the WT! Our daughter loved it and now we have another daughter who hopefully will enjoy it and not be scared....... haha

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Halloween / Birthday celebration

by River Song in

new to the board, first time posting a topic.

i just wanted to say how refreshing and sometimes funny it has been lurking here.

so much so that i decided to sign up to this message board.

FeelingFree

Hi River. We had our first ever Halloween party yesterday.....Well it was for the kids really and was such good fun! Then today trick or treaters came to our door for the first time and they actually frightened me!! I gave them some sweets and got excited waiting for more kids....but alas they were the only ones. Trick or treating hasn't caught on so well in this part of Wales (UK).

Hope you enjoyed yourselves, it's great being able to join in now isn't it!?

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My First Birthday.....

by The Marvster in

i awoken today and realised immidiately i'm 44 today... and after 3 years of being out, decided to acknowledge my birthday.... i'm off out to treat myself to a big hearty breakfast with cup of tea in the local weatherspoon's by the massive pond full of weird bird-life, later today i'm giving myself a gift of a 90 minute relaxation session in a float tank down by canary wharf in london.... only really have 2 close friends (it's a slow process trusting people agian) and they probably won't be able to see me today, but i'm sure i'll have a belated surprise from them both.... the first thing i did when i remembered was to rush to the computer, connect to the web and put on stevie wonder's 'happy birthday', as i listen to it, tears stream down my face... all those years of my life stolen ' but..... i'm free....'.

FeelingFree

Horaay!! Happy Birthday 😃 🎉🎂🎁

Hope you had a lovely day. x