Macys, I see that you have made your decision already.
But, I would like to just point out one thing.
You had said: "I would like to have children when I am finished with school and I can not imagine my grand kids asking why they can not see their own grandmother. I can not allow that to happen. So I am planning now to go back and get reinstated so my grand kids can know their grandparents."
You are not dealing with the present. You are living in some fantastical future when you MAY have children. Maybe. It sounds like you are sacrificing your integrity, honesty, and your identity for some event that might happen in the future.
IMO...your priority should be in establishing your personal strength and integrity so that you can be a strong role model for those imagined future children. And the thing you are leaving out of your equation is the imagined future paternal grandparents of those imagined children. Your future children will not be without grandparents - they will have the grandparents on their father's side.
You have gone back to your family of origin, but I think it is a mistake to place the burden of that decision on your imagined future children. They are only a twinkle in your eye and you are already making them the ones responsible for your decision. It doesn't sound hardly fair to them.
I am not criticizing your decision to return to your family, I just don't think it is fair to attribute that decision to children who aren't even born yet.
Good luck, Macys. I hope it all turns out well for you. And I also wish the very best father and paternal grandparents for your future children.