Welcome Alive!
I agree with FayeDunaway. Start enjoying your life. We have experienced similar things from our supposed friends and family. We finally had to come to the realization that these are are NOT our friends. Friends don't do those things to each other. It's one of the hardest realizations to come to grips with but once I (we) did it, I (we) have moved on. We feel so much better and are happy. Truly happy!