"Jehovah does not always use the best, he uses those that are available, thus a very imperfect org."
Think about that statement....so we are supposed to put our confidence in men who are only available? Whoa. I have been hearing all my life that these are imperfect men. Well, yes they are imperfect but according to what we have been told they are chosen by holy spirit. I don't buy it anymore (not sure I ever did). I would NEVER trust ANY of these "men" with any intimate details of my personal life. I will take my chances on figuring things out myself without giving these henchmen any rope to hang me with.
I agree with the above comments. Why do you want to go back? With all due respect, I don't see the attraction.