"A lot of the spiritual friends we had view us as questionable association so we don’t get invited much to anything, but it plays well in our fade."
We felt this as well. My spouse never felt the urge or need to reach out for a position. Something always held him back. Now we know what that was.
It amazes us how, even though we are great people to be around we never hit that "spiritual" status or mark.
So be it, we'll enjoy each other and the special friendship we have with each other.
We enjoyed reading your story. It does mimic so many stories on here. We always felt that maybe it was us that felt the way we did but when we started reading peoples experiences on this forum we realized it was not only us.
Keep posting, it really helps. We are enjoying reading your experience.