I was raised a witness. When I was a baby, my ministerial servant father kidnapped me. It took me over 30 years to find my mother. My father was an elder for decades. After finding my mother many things came to light about my father's past (it was not my mothers stories... he implicated himself). It will all come to the fore in about a year. I left the JW organization in the mid 80's, walked the earth as a dead man for almost 5 years. I tried to cut my wrists with broken glass, held a gun to head and pulled the trigger halfway because I tried so hard. I couldn't understand. The witnesses say as long as you are trying your best, God will bless you. From the day I was born my life was dark. After those few years I returned because the guilt was eating me alive (I was unable to de-program at this time). After returning and enduring elder meatings where I was berated, yelled at, chastized for having friends over to soon after being re-instated... followed by a brain injury (my lovely new JW wife promptly left me), I was able to finally excape the grasps of the mind controling Orgs who did not allow me to think for myself! I am now 39 and married to wonderful French woman and never been happier! I just hope my 18 year old daughter wakes up before she looses too much of her life. BM