Posts by Bryan

I was a newbie only about eleven months ago. Yes this is a great site. This is one of the best sites I've found where people actually understand what I've been through. It's a great place for healing and support. Hopefully the polical and national posts will be slowing down a bit now that the elctions are over.

Welcome!

Bryan

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It's happening, the anger and depression are taking over

by Tim Horton in

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i haven't posted for a while.

i'm starting to really lose my cool.

i'm angry all the time, it seems at everyone.

Bryan

I'm sure many of us here have been through these extemely difficult breakups. In this case, the old addage, "Time heals all wounds" is very true.

My sister is a nurse and she was telling me the other day that being angree with anything and everything, small things, is a sign of depression. I assume if you're seeing a therapist, you are taking some meds? If not, please do. It will help you get through this.

Be good... and we all do care.

Bryan

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Religion and Spirituality

by Markfromcali in

these days you hear people say "i consider myself spiritual, but not religious" more and more.

while i understand where that's coming from, what does it actually mean?

i can see where someone can be spiritual without being religious, just as we can see religious people not being spiritual, but what do each of those look like?

Bryan

For the last decade or so I have always said, "I am a spiritual person, not religious".

For me, to be a religious person, means to believe and follow what other men are trying to teach you. In my spiritualality, I feel I have a one on one relationship with God, what ever God is. I don't pretend to know that, but I really don't think God is an old man up in the plaedies or something. I feel spirituality within me. Religion in mans own design.

Bryan

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I got backmy sick son,,, just to lose the rest ofmy family

by wildfire in

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i am so upset ,,its hard to even write this out...but i know i must.....someof you know of my past...coming from a very difficult marriage with a so--called annointed one.. who made my life and the lives of my 5 children.

a living hell.....i only have one daughter in the borg...but even tho i am dis associated she still talks to me....i moved to texas to be near my daughter and my grand kids...but now i am being ostrasized for helping my schizophrenic son (24),,who couldnt make it on his own in north dakota...... and my son almost didnt make it to texas as he was thrown off the bus for smoking and abandoned... i went on a mission to find him.....by backtracking and giving out flyers of his picture with my phone ..number on it.

as it happened someone recognized him and i got him back....safe but not sound..... so now my daughters and their boyfriends have disowned me for taking him in....why i am not really sure....but with everyday mydepression gets worse....i have been hospitalized for attempted suicide many times...and theythink i am making up this shit..... just recently i was hospitalized ,,,for another suicide attempt... i think iwill make the next one stick...my brother killed himself at 38,,, no one knew the horrible secrets in his life and the family didnt want to know......now hes gone...leavingbehind 3 daughters and 2 grand daughters.. do they even know the pain and torments i have endured for soo long being in a cult...my 21 yr old daugher willlnever forgive me for what i did toher... sheis out now... but her sister is still in and i know its tearing her apart....my 24 yr old son is schizophrenic and may never be normal....but i am taking care of him as the rest ofthe family have abandoned him to my care....ha i cant even take care of me...for christs sake... for those of you i met at dallas in may,,,you know me right could i really be capable of being so selfish...so uncaring......i need your prayers and strength to get me thru this now.... there were so many things i couldnt do,, when my kids were being abused... i had to be submissive to that fucking jerk...he hurt me ,,, the borg hurt me....everyone gets hurt..... but this may be the straw that broke the camels back....words can and do hurt ,,, i can only say sorry to them so much.....but their dad willnever do that..he willnever make there hurt go away..... i just need ed to be heard as my daughters do not want me to talk to them....and it is breaking my heart in two so imust get my book done..before i am gone for good.....shalom my dear friends

Bryan

(((((wildfire)))))

I'm so sorry for everything you have gone through and all you are currently dealing with. You must think more than twice about hurting yourself. You went through a lot to find your son, who will help him in your absence?

Your daughters may feel you are only enabling him - which is not good for him - keeping him dependent. You have done an amaizing thing by finding him. You're a great mother. You really need to get him some help now. You cannot give him what he really needs if he truly is schizophrenic. And it seems obvious to me that you need to concentrate on yourself. Sounds like you still need some healing. The healing we all need after the borg.

Please take a breath, and at the moment, don't worry about what your daughters think. Get your son taken care of, find some peace for yourself. Then talk to your daughters... One thing at a time. You cannot tackle everything at once.

Thinking of you,

Bryan

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Why Is Alcohol "Good" and Marijuana "Bad"?

by FMZ in

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up until a short time ago (a couple of years maybe), insufficient research had been done on either of these drugs to say what the long term effects were.

only recently has it come out that certain kinds of alcohol (red wine etc) can reduce blood pressure.. so, with this in mind (the fact that they could actually be as bad or harmless as each other), why the heck is marijuana illegal and alcohol fine?.

fmz

Bryan

LOL!

Pass it... we'll study it later.

That is a bag of chips... right?

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Why Is Alcohol "Good" and Marijuana "Bad"?

by FMZ in

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up until a short time ago (a couple of years maybe), insufficient research had been done on either of these drugs to say what the long term effects were.

only recently has it come out that certain kinds of alcohol (red wine etc) can reduce blood pressure.. so, with this in mind (the fact that they could actually be as bad or harmless as each other), why the heck is marijuana illegal and alcohol fine?.

fmz

Bryan

alcohol has more bad effects by far

frankie,

Wow, I'm not an expert by far, but I have to respectfully disagree. It is a medical fact that one drink a day IS healthy for you. MJ may help dull pain for many people, but to say "alcohol has more bad effects by far" seems a little off to me. Both drugs, abused, will burn brain cells. To my knowledge, there is no study which says smoking a joint a day is good for your health.

Bryan

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Why Is Alcohol "Good" and Marijuana "Bad"?

by FMZ in

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friends

up until a short time ago (a couple of years maybe), insufficient research had been done on either of these drugs to say what the long term effects were.

only recently has it come out that certain kinds of alcohol (red wine etc) can reduce blood pressure.. so, with this in mind (the fact that they could actually be as bad or harmless as each other), why the heck is marijuana illegal and alcohol fine?.

fmz

Bryan

I have known several people throughout my life who have smoked pot for years. Most of them are just wierd or way too easy going to advance in life.

Alcohol, lets say one drink a day, is actually healthy for you. Many high dollar deals have been stuck over Mac Allen on the rocks. Not sure how much would get done if everyone was toking.

I have smoked... don't any more. Don't judge those who do, unless your on the road.

My oP.

Bryan